Who are the Jesuits?

The Jesuits, or the Society of Jesus, is the “black ops” and military arm of the Vatican. The Vatican is the wealthiest business entity on earth,
and is wholly dedicated to bringing in the New World Order, and its coming leader, known in former years as “he who is to come,”
and since 2000 as “he who has come” (the individual called the “antichrist” in the Bible).

This article is in no way a reflection upon most Catholics, who have no idea of what the top leadership of their church believes or practices in private.
The public face the Vatican shows, and the private, hidden face that very few know about, are quite different.

Jesuit History
While today, the Jesuits attempt to publicly portray themselves as benevolent, their roots go back to the beginning of the Christian church.
The first gnostics attempted to corrupt the teachings of the church in the first century, and taught the first theories of “ascenscionism” and “descensionism”
(which the Jesuits still teach today).

By the third century, the Christian church had grown at what to the early Roman pagans seemed an alarming rate. The pagan leaders, advised by their oracles,
came up with a plan to corrupt and destroy the church from the inside. Christianity was declared the “state religion,” the persecutions stopped,
and the move began to mainstream it into the paganistic beliefs of the Roman Empire.

At the same time, a secret cabal of leaders within the early leadership arose. Their goals were to gain political and financial control of the church
and to promote their doctrines, which included many of the early gnostic beliefs.

The ideas of penance, self-flagellation, and “salvation by works,” took root. As the centuries passed, the divide between early biblical Christianity,
and the actual occultic practices of the leadership hierarchy grew greater. Indulgences (buying “forgiveness”), confession to a priest, and the angling
for political power at the highest level of the Roman hierarchy became more pronounced.

By the early middle ages, powerful Italian families such as the Medicis and the Borgias began using methods such as poisoning and assassinations,
and spying upon enemies, to consolidate their power and gain election to the papacy.

The term “Vatican spy” was born during this period. The monarchs of Europe were well aware that the Pope in Rome had agents in their courts
who spied upon them and reported their activities to the Vatican – including whether the required tithe monies were being sent to Rome.
These Vatican spies and agents became consolidated under the military power of the Roman Catholic Church: the Jesuit Society.
This Society was responsible for the establishment of the opium trade between China and Europe, among other less than savory acts.

During the late middle ages, the Jesuits began sending “tutors” to instruct the monarchs of Europe in Latin, mathematics and higher learning.
They were considered the finest instructors in the world, and this gave them access to the children of the monarchy and wealthy during the 1500s and 1600s,
where they could accomplish their real agenda: putting these royal children under their sway through secret occultic training. This is one reason
why all the royal families of Europe became heavily involved in the occult and in serving the Vatican through membership in at least one
of the twelve secret societies, such as the Illuminati and the Knights Templar.

The Jesuit Society is extremely hierarchical, and military. They are headed by a man known as the “Black Pope,” or Superior General, and this man
is the REAL leader of the Vatican. He is feared by all within its corriders, and is at the center of a web of intrigue, vice and power that
is difficult for many to comprehend.

Directly beneath him are three generals, known as the “First General,” “Second General” and “Third General.” These are part of a council of twelve
top generals in the order. They are quite proud of the fact that they are the actual physical generals of satan’s army on earth, and each commands thousands
of troops throughout the world ready to do battle for the one they honor: satan himself, and his seed.
(These generals believe they have been directly commissioned by satan himself.)


What does the Jesuit Order Believe?

The Jesuits are occultists of the highest level (mages). Each member has been dedicated to satan from birth, and trained in occultism from infancy on.
The Jesuit monasteries are used as training grounds for the young Jesuits, who are brought in at birth. Those who survive the rigors of the first months
of infancy (when “weeding out” is done, and only one in ten infants survives) undergo extensive training in all the occultic arts, and in all of
the intrigues and deceptive practices that the Jesuit Order is infamous for.

The Jesuits believe the oldest lie man has believed since the Garden of Eden: they believe in the ability of man to ascend and to achieve “god” status
through acts of devotion and service to “gods”, specifically, what they call the gods of the Pantheon that rules over Gaia (earth dimension).
Failure to obey the Directives of the Order, or disobedience to this pantheon, results in descending into hell in their belief system.
They believe that ascending is the act of overcoming the flesh and any human feelings and emotions;
it is the act of moving to a higher spiritual plane where feelings and needs are left behind.

This is often accomplished through the act of physical dying and resuscitation (this will be discussed more later). The process of undergoing
repeated deaths during their training as mages is supposed to help a Jesuit overcome the fear of death, and promote the ability to travel through the dimensions.

The Jesuits believe in numerous dimensions (13), just as most deep occultists do. These dimensions reflect the spiritual travels outlined in Greek mythology,
which are actually records of spiritual travels, such as the Iliad. The beings who inhabit these dimensions are considered “enlightened” and the goal of
dimensional travel is to achieve enlightenment, to shed mortality, and to ascend. These travels are quite painful and dangerous, and the Jesuits celebrate
those who are able to travel to the highest levels and become an “ascended master.”

AntiChristian, Anti-Semitic
An important aspect of the Jesuit belief system is their utter hatred of Christianity and the Jewish race. Their beliefs are in direct opposition
to the commands of God as outlined in the Bible, and they directly teach their followers from infancy on to hate and fear the Christian God, Jesus, and Scripture,
and to hate the Jewish race. Their hatred is so great, that the Vatican helped fund the nazi cause behind the scenes, and actively supported Hitler
during the Second World War, until public opinion caused them to do so secretly. They funded Mengele’s experiments in the concentration camps
(this will be discussed in more detail later in this book) and created the “Vatican ratline” that helped Mengele and other infamous nazi war criminals
to escape to Argentiina and other countries.

Satan’s Throne
The Vatican was built over the original spiritual center for early Rome, a cave that was inhabited by the beings “Roma” and “Vatus” who gave it its name
(these were later changed to Romulus and Remus). While there are several public levels to the Vatican, there are also several levels beneath the ground
that the public is completely unaware of, where spiritual ceremonies are conducted. These ceremonies revolve around the worship of the four entities
that the Fathers venerate:
- Althea (the “tree of life” which also gave the name “Aborae de Vitae” to the primary Jesuit training monastery north of Rome), and who also represents “The Spirit”;
- The Beast, whose room and alter are five levels below ground;
- Satan: Satan’s Throne is a magnificent room that sits at the lowest level.
“He who has come” (Satan’s physical Son)

The stories at the Vatican say that it took over forty years of work by several crews of workmen to hew out Satan’s throne, which is a large room,
and to polish the bare rock into a room of great beauty. Trompe d’leoil paintings of windows adorn the walls, lit by recessed lights; and the smooth,
marble-like floor is covered with designs painted in gold and black ebony. The long hall has a long red carpet that leads up to a raised dais,
and on this dais is a huge throne, one that would require a giant to fill: Satan’s throne.
After it was built, the work crews were all killed, to prevent their leaking the secret of what lies beneath the upper levels of the Vatican.

At times, those coming to the throne come there for judgment. They have been found to be traitors to the Fathers or the coming order, or to have wandered
from “the path of obedience” because Satan is the worst legalist on earth, and punishes heavily any who even think disloyal or disobedient thoughts
towards him and his cause. The judgments may vary from an extremely painful and expensive penance, to actual death, which is executed within the throne room.

Sacrifices within the throne room are frequent, bloody and dramatic. This is an integral part of the Jesuit worship system, because at its heart,
the Roman establishment is occultic.


Satan’s Son

For years the Jesuits called the expected leader “he who is to come,” “the anointed one,” and considered him the bringer of the New Order
they have longed for over the centuries. The Jesuits specifically had an antichrist breeding program, in which they took young women
who were mated to satan himself in order to carry his child. The fetuses were spontaneously aborted in most cases; or else killed the mother prior to birth.

In 2000, an infant was born, and the word was out:
“he who is to come” had arrived, and is being carefully raised and tutored by the Jesuit Fathers at the Vatican.

While he is still a child, he is extremely physically beautiful, and filled with evil.
At this time, he sits on satan’s throne, and makes judgments, since he is his direct seed, or so the Jesuit Fathers believe.
Because of their deception, the Jesuits completely discount the Christian God, or the fact that in His Word He states His complete knowledge
of these activities and plots. Psalm 2 shows that the LORD knows all about the plots and machinations going on in Rome, and the worldwide influence
they hold over world leaders. It is interesting to see that the LORD finds these plots laughable, because His power is so much greater.
Unfortunately, this fact does not deter the ongoing planning and deception that occurs in the Vatican.


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Basic Programming

Foundational programming for the Jesuit Order involved programming to believe, love and obey Satan and the Fathers.
These are the three system-wide basic commands or rules that underlie all other more specific programs.
This programming began in the womb and the foundational nature of these programs meant that I was able to communicate more fully with these parts only much later in my healing journey (after 2021) at a time when I finally felt significantly more physically and emotionally safe. The major groups of parts involved in this programming included: the prenatal and infant parts tasked to believe, love and obey; the birthmother parts who reinforced the indoctrination, and rewards and punishments; the ‘immortal’ or ‘star’ parts who also reinforced the indoctrination, and rewards and punishments.

“Believe” programming involved parts who were very heavily indoctrinated, trained and conditioned to believe every single thing the programmers told them
with no question or hesitation. Their job was not only to believe everything the programmers said, but to cause all other parts to also believe the programmers.
For instance, they were one reason why my Alice in Wonderland presentation parts believed they never lost time. When the presentation parts were shown
the video updates and were told to believe that these were real memories of the life they were living, the underlying system-wide Believe programming reinforced
the specific programming these parts had to believe that the videos were their own ‘memories’. Or, when I went online and saw terrible videos
that automatically played of loved ones being tortured because I was not returning to the Order, together with the cue to believe that this was really happening
and that it was my fault, I would feel compelled to believe it was true. This would happen consistently despite logically knowing that I was not morally responsible
for the event. It would even be hard for me to question the authenticity of the video, despite knowing that the cult had the ability to fake such videos using AI,
stage props and sophisticated graphics.

Similarly, ‘Obey’ programming constituted parts whose job was to unthinkingly, unhesitatingly obey any commands given to them by a primary programmer
or anyone who could combine the command with the code that the parts had been conditioned to obey. Again, their job was not just to obey but to compel the obedience
of all parts in the system. Obedience programming is critical to the cult because so much of what the cult requires their members to do is repugnant to the human soul.
For instance, “Obey” parts enabled the cult to ensure that I would obey my more specific programming to be a child assassin or child sex slave.
When I was trying to escape the cult, it enabled them to order my front presenter parts to ‘forget’ that I had seen cult members come by my house
or accost me at the grocery store parking lot, decreasing my ability to strategize for safety. Obey programming also bolstered my self-destruct programming,
such as when cult member ordered my system to punish until I gave up and attempted suicide. Fortunately, a lot of internal parts disagreed with and joined together,
and successfully fought this command.

On the heels of learning about my core level believe and obey programming, I started to get in touch with the ‘Love’ programming. These parts were completely dedicated
to their job of loving the Order and Satan, including at the cost of my life. Like the obey and believe parts, they compelled other parts in other programs
to continue ‘loving’ the cult even in the face of continuous abuse and inhuman activities. From the womb, they had been indoctrinated with several beliefs
about ‘love’ designed to justify and valorize the Order’s culture of abuse and control. One such belief was that if I loved someone, I would
take pain and torture for them. This belief enabled the programmers to create deep trauma bonds between me and others in the Order through shared
and alternating experiences of torture, then to use these bonds to control us.

Another was the concept that there is “no love without pain”. This false programmed platitude felt completely true to my love parts, and enabled me to believe
that we were very loved even as every attachment figure in my infancy and later in life abused and tortured me. It enabled me to psychologically survive
having to torture and program my loved ones as I grew older because at some level, I could convince myself that I was showing them ‘love’. The underlying belief
that there was ‘no love without pain’ also facilitated the installation of my punishment programs as I hit infancy and early childhood; if I did not have pain
inside my system, it would mean that I did not have ‘love’ inside my system; if I did not have ‘love’ inside my system, then I would stop obeying and caring
for the Fathers; if I did not obey and care for the Fathers, then they would die; if they died, I would be completely alone and abandoned – the ultimate terror of the infant.

Working with the love, believe and obey parts was at times emotionally overwhelming and heartbreaking because their programming or conditioning had been begun prenatally by the birthmother. For instance, the ‘obey’ parts began when my birthmother was tortured and as the torture continued, she screamed at me that I could ‘rescue’ her from the torture by promising that I would always obey the programmers. To associate love with taking pain, while she was being tortured, she would scream and cry and ask me to take the pain for her if I loved her. The programmers would then shock me instead of her as she praised me for loving her so much. To introduce the association of believe with love and safety, and the association of unbelief with pain, the birthmother pretended to ‘disbelieve’ the programmer and was tortured for it, modeling what would happen if I did not believe. She then screamed at me that if I would always believe, they would stop torturing her.

I wept with these young parts as they started to share their memories of how they had been treated in the womb, and felt with them their feelings of rage, hate, pain, grief, hurt, confused love and betrayal. It took a lot of holding these parts and reassuring them, “I love you even when you don’t obey”, “It wasn’t your fault,” “she should have never said that to you,” for them to feel safe enough to question these beliefs, and to allow themselves to be comforted. As the emotional pain from the prenatal abuse would arise, I also spent time in prayer and scripture, letting God know how much it hurt, and asking Him to hold me, and to help me survive this pain. As I did this, I sensed His deep compassion and care for my system. This caring brought comfort in the midst of the sadness and feelings of maternal betrayal.
In some of my prayer times, I saw God reaching out to these very young parts. More often than not, they were very angry with Him for their early abuse and exploitation. Some of the babies raged at Him while others presented a stony silence, or ‘disappeared’ back deeper in where I was not conscious of them. He usually responded with a gentle presence and allowed these babies to interact with Him as much or as little as they wanted to with absolutely no pressure to ‘be Christian’ or even change in any way. Observing His peaceful, love-filled and non-anxious way of just being present with the little ones helped me to do the same, and helped to redefine my own concept of what God was like, instead of simply believing the false ‘Christian’ scripts I had been given.


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While the encounter with Jesus had infused me with new courage, I still struggled with constant extreme pain and panic.
These symptoms come from the punishment programs that are triggered whenever parts think thoughts or take actions that defy their programming,
and whenever any part disobeys an external trigger from a cult member. I am desperate to help the pain and panic go down inside, and work hard at contacting parts
and helping them. As I find them and hear from them, I spend hours simply holding them and rocking them, telling them “I love you”. The emotional and physical
pain is wearying and discouraging, but I keep praying, journaling, and letting parts know that I want to help them.

Earlier in my journey, I had struggled with rage at my abusers, shame and guilt at the things done to me and that I had done to others, as well as
love for my abusers and all the confusion that comes from that. Now I find myself facing a very difficult emotion: hopelessness. While I felt that I had never
been aware of such hopelessness in my system before, I suspect that this hopelessness has been present since my earliest days when I could never escape the abuse
or resist being coerced into doing things repugnant to my soul; that in fact, this deep hopelessness drove my infantile failure to thrive. For the first two years after
the encounter with Jesus, my healing work often focuses on addressing these three emotions. I memorize scriptures that speak to the hopelessness, panic and pain
that I feel, and others that declare that God is my healer. I begin to do directed art therapy with a large pad, drawing and collaging, but the process is slow.
Many days, it feels as if I am slogging uphill through mud.

I keep persisting in spite of the hopelessness I battle as I go deeper inside my systems. “God, I have to trust that You can heal me, even when I don’t believe it,”
I tell Him, sobbing. As I journal, parts are drawing and writing difficult feelings, saying things such as “You left Rome, spent time with outsiders,
and look what happened to us;” “you are so clueless, why should I ever trust you again? I have gotten hurt and/or abandoned every time I ‘tried to heal’”;
and “I want to heal, but it feels as if it will take forever, and there is so much pain in here. Can I ever really get through it all, and feel alive again?”
I journal back to my parts, responding to their emotional pain, and mainly sit with them as they share their feelings, their grief, their anger and hurt,
and also how hard it is to keep saying “No” when cult members try to come by. “I miss my children” is a common journal theme; along with “I miss my husband
(in Germany, or France, or the UK)”; or “I don’t want them to get hurt because of me” after being triggered by someone signing to me in a store
that if I don’t come with them, they will get hurt, and having to turn away and shake my head “No”.

I learn that the Order raises triplet sets, and that my siblings in my triplet set are Lizzie and Danny, and how much I have loved them over the years.
I also learn that the Order’s genetic program produces several genetically identical children in each batch, so that these lookalike children can take turns
playing particular identities or roles in various countries or jobs for years. I am amazed to remember that while I have been “Elsa” in America, all my life,
Lizzie and these other genetic sisters of mine have also played “Elsa” when I had to be in other countries or on cult jobs. I am also just as amazed to realize
that my son and daughter in America had also been played by several children who look alike. I journal extensively about how much I miss Lizzie and Danny,
and discover that they have been trying to trigger me – and get me to go back to Rome with them – for years.

The memories of loved ones in the Order comes with other memories of life in the Order. I remember more about the facilities, the group’s interactions with other occult
societies and government agencies, the children’s training and education, the hierarchy and culture, and the yearly rhythm of activities. I am often moved to tears
by the memories of the small ways that people tried to find joy and show their humanity amidst a brutal and inhuman system. Most of the memories, however, are horrible.
Some of the most difficult memories come from the time when I was 14 and had become a Christian and ran away from the Order, and again in my late 30s when
I had come to faith and tried to leave the cult again. I remember the negative sound room I was put in where I felt like I was losing my mind,
the torture and betrayals by those I loved, my own betrayal of them, and all the lives that were wasted as they tried to break then reprogram me.
I am horrified by the memories of the things they made me do to ‘prove’ my renewed loyalty after I broke. Some days, it is hard to keep going, as the memories
seem to snowball, coming faster and faster, but I ask God for the strength, and He provides it.

As more memories come forward, the punishment systems designed to prevent healing kick in. These are extremely severe at first and I spend days feeling like
I am in agony. Some days, I choose to force past the pain to keep working on healing, and on other days, I rest. At times, I feel as if I am “sparking” all over
with electric shocks, and when my friends put their hands on my neck, they can feel the shocks, too. I realize that my body is remembering the shocks and waveforms
experienced when parts were being programmed to self-punish. As parts and I process the memories of the punishment programming and show care for the parts
who hold the pain, the pain levels slowly start to decrease. I am frustrated, however, that the improvement is so slow.
I wonder what I am missing or what my system is still afraid of, that the punishment programs are still so robust.

Much that I learn about my own front programming amazes me at first. I had known since I was at Connie’s that as the front person or presenter, I am a programmed part
(technically, a group of parts), like any other part in my system. But I have not had memories of my own programming before; the only programming memories
I had were the memories of other parts’ programming as they shared those with me. For example, I start to remember one of the many ways I was programmed
to be ‘blind’ to any cult objects, people and activity: as a toddler, I was put in a programming studio made up to look like a room in the house I lived in
as a child in Virginia. If I saw any cult object or person or activity taking place there, then it would become ‘real’ and hurt me and my family very, very badly.
But if I ‘could not see’ them, then we were all ‘safe’. I also start to recall the many unspeakably cruel scenarios used by the programmers to teach me
to never hear or see other parts inside, and to always disbelieve them.

What surprises me the most is to learn that I had promised to forget the Order out of love for the Fathers. In these memories, I am very, very little and as Alice,
a presentation controller, I am sitting on Father Mattheo’s lap, and he is asking me to forget him out of love for him. I weep because I love him
and cannot bear the thought of forgetting him. But he tells me that it is necessary because if I did not forget, then when I was around strangers,
I might slip up and say or do something that would compromise the security and safety of the fathers and the other people I loved back in Rome.
My forgetting would be a sign of how much I loved them, and a sacrifice that they would always cherish.
I go through a period of rage and grief as I process that their coercing me into forgetting was not for ‘love’, but to facilitate the protection
of their criminal activities and their abuse of me and other children.

I had no idea that guilt and self-hate played so strongly into self-punishment and understand better why several years ago, God had told me that receiving
love was key to healing. My prayers change from repeatedly begging God to forgive me (driven by my dissociated guilt from this and other events)
to asking Him to help me to receive his love and to teach me to love myself.
As parts and I continue to release guilt, shame and self-hate, and build trust and learn to do life together, I notice another gradual shift.
Now, instead of simply hearing about my past as reports by other parts, I was having the realization that I had always known these things had happened, deep inside;
I had simply forgotten them (by intent), choosing not to look at them. Remembering my childhood in Rome, while usually emotionally painful,
was not the terrible, frightening thing I had been told it would be, but instead, was a vast relief, as I no longer had to hide these things from my conscious knowledge.
Instead of reacting with terror and dismay as I had earlier on my healing journey, now when parts shared, I would feel in my gut, “Oh, I’ve always known that!”
I was coming home to me.


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Father programming

As an infant, each day was broken up into programming, training, comfort, rest, play times and attachment/bonding time on a strictly regimented schedule
in the facility nursery. The fathers in the order were experts in child development and were careful to balance training (which was gentle,
and filled with praise very early on, with only mild punishments if any for inability to perform in the early weeks) with nurture. They realized that
if a child was not given enough nurture, they could develop psychopathic tendencies, would be less controllable (since love is the greatest motivator),
and would show other pathologies in psychological or physical development. They knew this because of the failed programming methods used in the early 1900s,
when the children were not given enough nurturing and failed to attach to a loving adult caregiver: many had to be “put down” later as they developed
severe psychopathic tendencies, to the point of killing the trainers that they did not love, without a twinge of regret.

Oh, how carefully the fathers monitored and doled out “love” to us infants, and we came to look expectantly for that special time each day with the “fathers we loved”.
Each infant had three primary fathers they bonded with, along with nine others who were also important to their emotional development and training.
I loved three special fathers the most: Father Mattheo, Father Jerome, and Father Carlotti. I was also very closely bonded to Father John, an older female trainer,
and Father Daniel, a female trainer who also nursed me and filled the “mother” role in my life. Females upon becoming a Jesuit father took on male names,
so this was considered normal in the Order. The Jesuits always had several trainers that bonded closely to each infant, since they realized that otherwise,
if an infant bonded to only one individual and that individual died, the baby or child would be at a huge risk for failure to thrive, or would be basically
un-programmable. They learned this, also, from the failures of the early 1900s, when some children bonded to only one primary trainer, who died.
Data was collected on these children, and they kept it in their huge library of training materials and information, as well as coded into a huge computer database
that could be accessed with a simple series of codes and voice commands for those authorized to do so.

So I, and the other infants I was raised with, bonded to the fathers we loved. But the fathers I loved also tortured me and the other babies.
Infancy and childhood was a strange mix of torture and being held and rocked lovingly; being nursed by the same individual who later sexually abused me.

I came to hate and fear that phrase, “bad baby”, used by Mengele and the fathers, as something to avoid at all costs. “Bad babies” cried, turned away from,
and kicked at their programmers, and did not greet them with an unfailing smile. “Bad babies” were allowed one or two chances, but after that,” bad babies”
were hung on hooks from the nursery ceiling until they died, or were seen in “hell” later that day, being whipped to death by “demons” (children in costumes).
We all learned to be “good babies”: compliant and programmable, and never to show how we really felt about how we were being treated. We were taught
to send that anger down into an “anger pit” filled with anger-holding parts inside; this rage would then be directed at other objects, such as Christians,
outsiders, and most importantly, ourselves.

This inability to show my feelings at the person who caused them fostered intense dissociation which the fathers had already carefully conditioned me
to rely on while in the womb and during the early weeks after birth. I already had the structure in place to ‘dissociate away’ into designated parts
the angry feelings out of my fear of punishment for “bad babies” and to focus on performing well and being a “good baby”.

In the memory above, I also mention the healing rooms. The programming facility had state-of-the-art healing technologies that even over sixty years ago
were far ahead of what is commercially available to healthcare providers currently. There were vats filled with saline and electrolyte/mineral solutions
of various types, with various types of frequencies to promote healing, and even artificial skin that when lit with a red light would help new skin to grow rapidly.
Because of the ongoing, physical abuse, these technologies were necessary to prevent permanent scarring or disability for the children being programmed,
as well as older children and adults who might come back injured from dangerous or strenuous missions, or who might be accidentally injured
during training and military exercises.

The Drawer
I am a few months old, and I am upset. Father Jerome is taking out the wires and electrodes that I have come to hate; wires and electrodes that cause sharp,
biting pain with the electric shocks that they conduct. I don’t want this! When he tries to put the electrodes on me, I kick and squirm and wiggle away,
struggling to avoid these stinging wires being placed on me.

“This type of behavior can’t be allowed. Be still!” he commands sternly.

But I am not still. I disobey him, for I am still very small, and do not know yet what can be done to ensure compliance. His command instills less fear
in me than the fear that the memory of shocks that sting like bees, shocks that cause terrible, burning pain. I don’t want to be hurt, so I continue to resist,
arching my back in protest and screaming.

Father Jerome stops, then takes a key hanging around his neck, and with it, opens a small drawer. This drawer has padding on the bottom and sides.
He picks me up, saying, “You will experience utter darkness, the hell reserved for disobedience such as this”. He then places me into the drawer, and slides it shut it with a loud “click”.

It is utterly dark and soundless in this drawer. I can breathe, but there is no light, no noise, nothing. It is quiet, and I am afraid. I wait to see what will happen.

Time passes, and I am frightened and hungry. I cry and cry with ever louder wails, but no one hears. My diaper is wet and filled with stool, and I am afraid.
No one can see or hear me in this place; no one is there to take care of me. I am a little baby, and I know that I will die if no one takes care of me.
I depend on the adults around me for everything. And now, there is…nothing. Just black darkness. I am terrified.

Time passes, where I alternate between loud screams of terror, and soft whimpers. Finally, I am too exhausted to cry any longer. I fall asleep.

I am very sleepy; maybe I will never wake up. I am starting to feel very far away and strange, as if my body is getting smaller and further away.
Maybe this is what dying is like. It feels like a long time has passed, and I am resigned to being here forever, and dying.

Suddenly, I hear the drawer slide open. There is a light, much too bright for my eyes which have been in complete darkness for so long,
even though it is just the dim light that is on in the nursery at night.

Father Jerome is there, and I am frantic, desperate for him to take me out of this terrible, terrible box. “Will you obey me now?” he asks,
looking me in the eyes. He sees the terror and pleading in them, and lifts me out of the box of terror, of abandonment.

He holds me for awhile, close to his chest, then gives me part of a bottle. I drink, but keep looking at his eyes the whole times, frantic for him to respond
to my frantic terror and need for him to not leave me alone. Later, he takes me into a white room with a rocking chair, and rocks me for a period of time.
Finally, I relax and rest awhile.

The next morning, Father Jerome returns, comes to my crib, and tries to put the electrodes on me. I do not struggle or resist this time.

These drawers are reserved as punishment for resisting being programmed, and being placed in one was one of the cruelest tortures that I experienced as an infant.
The sense of utter abandonment and terror was overwhelming, but it also ensured compliance in an infant that comes to realize that emotional survival
depends upon obedience to what the trainers demand, no matter how difficult.

Learning to Crawl Towards Colored Lights
I am a baby, able to crawl but not able to do much else, yet. After all, I am only three months old. I am on the smooth floor of one of the programming labs.
I have been told to wait. Suddenly, I hear six notes played in a specific sequence. Simultaneously, a code is flashed in front of me on a large overhead screen:
it is a black and white pattern in a specific configuration meant to bring out a specific part. I have already learned to bring the correct parts out
when different tones and patterns are shown to me during the previous first few weeks of life, and have become quite good at it, to the pleased smiles
and “good girl!” comments from the fathers I love. This ability to make them so happy makes me coo and wiggle with joy.

Now, a part loyal to the Jesuit Order is out, and a green light, about the size of a traffic light, shines down the smooth tunnel I am crawling through
as I crawl towards this light. The tunnel is bathed in the green light, as Cerachnid-1, a cult-loyal presenter, is learning that green is her color,
just as the tone sequence and pattern are hers. This task is fun, and when Cerachnid reaches the light, she is given a piece of soft fruit as a special treat
by Father Jerome, a man in his early 20s who already has white hair that looks beautiful with his clear blue eyes.

“Cerachnid, you did well,” he tells her. Jerome then picks me up in his strong arms and cuddles me against the soft folds of his lab uniform.
“Cerachnid, you are so special for being able to do this,” he says, and Cerachnid wiggles with delight at the praise in his voice. “I love you,” Jerome tells her.
“I am glad that you had fun doing this”. During this early part of training, there are lots of rewards and hugs when Cerachnid and other parts perform well,
doing simple tasks such as recognizing cues to come out; recognizing their special colors, and obeying the trainers.

Punishments will come later on after this first, primary belief is instilled deeply: obedience to cues brings feelings of love, security, joy, and is even “fun”.

It is a month later. Cerachnid has been performing very well, but now something very important happens to her. Cerachnid undergoes extremely severe pain,
being told ahead what will happen. The fathers always tell parts when pain is going to happen, they never hide this fact.

Cerachnid cannot endure this pain, and her mind starts dissociating from it, creating new little babies from herself. These new parts are quickly given
names as each comes out; a code specific to them is flashed on the screen above her, and these new cult loyal parts split from Cerachnid become
the system parts that she will oversee and eventually learn to control.

“You must keep these parts safe, Cerachnid,” Father Jerome tells her. She understands what “safe” means; it means making sure that they obey and believe
everything they are told. Her job is make sure that they obey and believe; this is the only “safe” that she and others inside have experienced.

Cerachnid will eventually learn to forget that these other parts originally came from her, and instead, will see herself as protecting them from “further harm”
(going through the agonizing pain, pain that made her feel as if she was dying, of her original splitting memory). She is told that she can only keep
them “safe” by ensuring that they are always “good” by being obedient to programming cues and commands. Her desire to protect these parts dissociated from
herself from experiencing further pain and trauma actually reflects the deep, instinctive self-love that all babies have for themselves, which the programmers
are counting upon as they cause her and other primary controller parts to dissociate and then re-organize into subsidiary, system parts.

It is several weeks later, and I am four and a half months old. Cerachnid is taken to a special room in the programming lab. There is a huge tree pattern
laid out on the floor, with a trunk, roots, branches and leaves. She has already met “Gnossis” (the tree of knowledge), a woman dressed in a tree costume,
who visited her crib numerous times over the past few months, and explained to her who she is. Cerachnid now sees the face of this woman embedded
in the center of the tree, inlaid with the bark, and wiggles with recognition.

“Cerachnid, it is time for you to learn where you live on the tree,” the soft, beautiful voice says. “Come to your place”. At that moment, a special pattern
(Cerachnid’s code), a small green light and the musical sequence play on a specific branch, close to the trunk. Cerachnid is guided by the trainer to this spot, and she sits.

“This is where you will live,” says the soft voice of the tree. “This is your special place where you can feel safe; if you leave your special place,
you and those you protect and help – your system – will be unsafe”. The trainer then comes and hugs Cerachnid, and gives her a soft, sweet rusk to suck on.
They spend time in peaceful activity, while one limb of the tree slowly strokes Cerachnid’s back and the trainer murmurs loving words to her.
After a few minutes, the trainer calls out another part whose job is to not remember the programming session, Cerachnid goes back in, and the trainer picks me up and carries me out of the lab. I have no memory of what happened inside the lab; only Cerachnid will remember learning her place on the tree.

This gentle, loving scene is repeated numerous times over the next few weeks for Cerachnid and other system controllers, until each one understands their “place”
on the tree; my system controllers are major branches, with their system parts the outlying twigs, and programs (leaves) that branch out from them.

It is not until this program, and the deep feeling of love and safety for going to the correct place on the tree, and remaining there, is instilled,
that the punishments for leaving the designated place or disobedience are installed. For the rest of her life, Cerachnid will always seek to return
to that initial sense of peace, safety and being loved that underpinned her programming. And for her, this means complete, unquestioning obedience and belief in what her trainers tell her.

The above memory illustrates how the Jesuit trainers use a combination of concrete, physical structures and activities for their training of infants
and young children, combined with rewards and punishments to ensure that expected behaviors will be instilled. But this, like all programming,
will often rest upon an earlier, primary memory, of a time when the controller was loved and felt safe; in essence, a “resting place” that the controller
will always try to return to whenever possible. The trainers provide a framework for the only way this feeling of security and attachment can be attained:
being programmable, and obedient to the programs being installed by the trainers.


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Mother programming

Because occultic and mind control groups manipulate attachment needs, they will allow the infant to bond to a mother figure. This mother figure is nurturing,
caring, and may be the only “real mother” love the infant and child has experienced. The goal is to create an association in the young child’s mind between
love for a mother, and loyalty to the group (e.g. “loving the mother means loving the group”, etc.)

This aspect of programming is well known among governmental agencies as well. For instance, Russia’s Spetz will have the infants bond to “Mother Russia”;
France will have the infant bond to “Liberte”; and the CIA will allow the infant to bond with Liberty as a maternal figure, and the current president
as a father figure. These bonds will be in addition to the bonding to their primary trainer or handler (often known as “Daddy” or “papa” or a variation).

The Jesuits have their own version. The infants raised within their order are bonded to “Mother Rome” (Materna Roma). She is often portrayed
on highly confidential seals (not seen publicly) seated on a throne, with two wolves at her feet (representing Romulus and Remus, the founders of Rome).
This maternal figure holds the infant, nurses it, rocks and soothes the infant, and is invariably loving and kind during early childhood.
This is the only real mother figure the infant is allowed to bond to, and in fact, numerous setups are done when a female caretaker allows the infant to bond,
and then breaks the bond by eventually abusing the infant. The mothers in the families the child will be hosted with will also reject the child,
and not allow bonding. “Mother Rome” becomes the only mother figure in the child’s life he or she really trusts.

This mother allows the child to talk about their hopes, concerns, and fears, and does not attempt to overtly control or program the child, as the trainers
do in other settings. Instead, she will listen sympathetically, acknowledge that what the child has experienced is difficult, and tells the child
how proud she is that he or she is a “son of Rome” who will help to make the world a better place. The child is told that they are one of a long line
of descendants from the original founders of Rome, and will be used to bring in the “Pax Romana” or “Roman Peace” when the New World Order is ushered in.

All children want and need the love of a mother, and the groups that use mind control, including the Jesuits, understand this, and will manipulate it
to ensure the loyalty and even love of their agents. The only true bond is to the “mother” and to see her, the child must return to “home” (the cult training facility).
When the individual tries to leave the group they were raised within, one of the conflicts they will often experience is the fear of losing their “mother’s” love.

The mother figure, who is a cult member acting the role, may show great distress, or cry tears of sorrow, if the child ever questions obeying
the group leaders. She will act emotionally wounded, and try to help the child understand the need for the tasks and abuse the child is undergoing.
In setups during early childhood, the “mother” shows the child the results of a world without her influence (chaos, barbarianism, etc.), and the wisdom
of listening to her (peace, order, prosperity and joy ensue).

Time with the mother figure is one of the biggest rewards for an individual who has undergone this type of attachment manipulation. It can be distressing
when the individual breaking free from mind control begins to realize that they were tricked by another cult member playing a role for programming purposes;
and to sort through the feelings of love and attachment (which were real feelings), from the manipulation and control, and the messages that go against
what the survivor wants (freedom from coercion and manipulation).

The survivor may greatly fear the loss of this “mother love”, since the attachment is deep and begun very early in life. It can help to understand
that healing does not mean negating what was good (the experience of being loved and nurtured), which can be retained while looking at the whole picture,
and realizing that the survivor no longer needs to agree with the group’s agenda or to obey its directives.


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Spiritual Programming

From my first breath, the programming was non-stop for the first three years. The programming involved numerous setups in which trainers dressed as various
“deities” (“celestial beings”) appeared by my crib, clothed in white or silver robes, and glowing with a soft light, as their kind voices taught me to
love them – and to identify with them.

Others trainers dressed as “demons” and showed the splits created just before their appearance how to act and sound like a demon, with guttural growls, snarls, etc.
These splits learned as toddlers to enjoy eating raw flesh, the only food they were allowed.

The highest (core) systems were bonded to trainers who dressed as ascended beings. Their eyes were covered with crystals to prevent me as an infant from
seeing human eyes, since these parts were taught to hate and fear mortals through setups that involved “humans” or “mortals” raping and torturing them,
until the “ascended beings” rescued and comforted them. I bonded completely to these creatures that appeared in various forms: a young form
(appearing like a small dinosaur), a huge form (resembling Jabba the Hut or a similar grotesque appearance) and a beautiful form, looking much like
a beautiful human but with unhuman eyes.

My love for these creatures would be tested time and again over the years. These parts felt that only these “celestial” creatures could love them,
and they all held one feeling in common: they utterly despised mortals and the human race, who had tortured them in the womb, and were committed to
the destruction of the human race (my fetal rage was held by them).

Celestial Paradise and “Hell” programming
As a baby, I was placed in a special baby carrier designed as a chariot in the programming labs. This chariot slowly rose upwards on a clear cable
to an upper level of the lab staged to look like celestial paradise. In this “paradise” beings dressed in silvery white robes greeted me, held me,
comforted me and gave me sweet drinks and cake. Harp music played, and a celestial “choir” sang songs of the joy of ascending. I realize that
this sounds more like a Hollywood studio than a programming lab, but a young infant is very susceptible to believing these setups, since they have limited
life experience to balance it against. As an infant, I truly believed I was “ascending to the heavenly realms” and loved the experience – and the beings
who lovingly greeted me there.

As an infant, I was also taken at other times to “hell”, which was a programming studio at a lower level. Trainers dressed as Abbadon and Apollyon came
to my crib, grabbed me, and told the young infant me that I was going to be “punished for my sins” of “disobedience.” It was a terrifying experience
as they took me down a long, dark tunnel to a place lit with flames, with demonic creatures (young trainees in costume) dancing around poles
where victims were tied and being tortured. As I descended into this place of horror and fear, I heard the “demons” discussing how young and tender
I looked, as they drew nearer and tried to cut some flesh off with a knife, or spear me with a fork. I screamed in terror, and then “Satan” appeared
and “rescued” me in this setup (in others, various people, such as the trainers I was bonded to, or a messiah figure were the ones who rescued).
“Satan” scooped me up and took me away, telling me that as long as I obeyed him, I would be safe and he would protect me.

By the time I was three years old, I was utterly and completely committed to the belief that those who obey “ascend” and those who disobey cult directives
and orders “descend.” The proselytizing that began in the womb, and reinforced heavily, had taken hold. I had internalized the creatures ranging from angels,
to demons, to celestial beings, to dragons, and others inside, and had created an internal “heaven” and “hell” to hold them in. Punishment for questioning
the group’s orders included the inside parts being dragged into the internal hell by internal representations of Abbadon and Apollyon, and rewards for
instant obedience and good performance (such as killing on command, doing sacrifices well, etc.) included being allowed to visit “paradise”
and communicate with the beings there.

I was considered successfully spiritually programmed by the trainers who installed these setups and beliefs. It would not be until years later,
when I became a Christian, that I learned to my great surprise that the Bible never mentions a hell populated by “demons” who are overseen by “Satan”
with the power to “torture” individuals; instead, the concept of Sheol is quite different, and the gehenna of final judgment is very different
from the cult setups I experienced.


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The pantheons were programmed to believe that they were a wise leadership council whose responsibility was to lead the systems into ascension,
and to prevent the degradation of programming (and so, prevent resulting punishment). These parts were internalized first prenatally, with actors
talking to the birth mother and fetus, and sharing who they were. During infancy, the programming was installed further, with the programmers
dressing in a costume representing the part coming to the infant’s bedside, talking kindly to the infant and sharing who they were, and what they did.
They would each bond to the part that had been created (through severe trauma), and would tie a golden cord between themselves and the infant,
saying “you are me, and I am you”, as they spoke the scripts accorded to the part.

Behind these pantheons is a third pantheon, consisting of the “ancients” and “those who existed before time”. These “beings of light” were part of
the core system, and were first installed prenatally by shining a bright light on the abdomen of the birth mother. The fetus then heard the words
“I am a god, and have come to bring you light and enlightenment” and other scripts. This “council of light” internalized was very unemotional,
was programmed to believe that it represented “universal consciousness” and would “bring the child into her destiny.” These light beings spoke “prophecies”
over the fetus, and later, over the infant, and over time, were internalized.

They sounded quite benevolent, logical and empathetic. They were considered “guides” that the child was to listen to and receive direction from;
and they consistently rewarded obedience to the Order (called the path to ascension) and punished instantly any disobedience to group directives
(considered the path to descension, which would end in “utter darkness”).


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Pleiadian programming

Podle mého výpočtu mohou dobré (i špatné) světelné bytosti existovat (nezávisle na nás), stejně jako je možné, že existuje nekonečný zdroj, ze kterého je naprogramované děti "zhmotňují" (=svojí vírou). Mně se zdál tak před týdnem sen o "shift", takže na to věřím (jenže nikdo neví, kdy). Jestli se "shift" shoduje s Biblí - těžko říct. Popsané je to podobně (zničení / změna světa a vzestoupení ve světelném těle do nového, což se pravděpodobně děje běžně po smrti), ale padlí andělé by to mohli chtít napodobit / nafingovat.. Podle mě člověk pozná, co je v souladu a co ne (=až to přijde). Také jsem sdílela jeden X post, ve kterém některé unesené SRA děti byly převezeny k té opuštěné dávné mayské pyramidě v Jižní Americe, kde si je vyzvedlo ufo, ukázalo jim jinou planetu, a některé zase vrátilo (=takže vzpomínky na jinou planetu mohou být i z návštěvy v dětství v tomto životě, byť existují "hvězdná semínka", která žila na mnohých jiných planetách v minulých životech). Také je možné, že lidské bytosti vyzařují "světlo", takže někdo může tu samou událost prožívat živě (ten, kdo má světlo), zatímco jiný se prochází mezi "atrapami simulace".. (ten, kdo hřeší = NPC) Z toho důvodu tvrdím, že ačkoliv svět do určité (větší) míry funguje jako simulace, kdokoliv to takto prožívá, ocitá se (vnitřně) v pekle (pravděpodobně kvůli smrtelnému hříchu). Bůh odpouští hříchy, takže se stačí napravit. Zároveň ale existují i oblasti ovládané egregory, takže se někdo může vnitřně cítit špatně kvůli nízkovibračním okolním lidem, aniž by sám hřešil, což právě řeší ascension a/nebo život. Buď život dává lidem scénáře, při kterých se vyvíjejí, a/nebo lidé sami umí transformovat realitu.

Takže je možné, že dobří Plejáďané existují, ale DS je proti nim (=nemá je rád), a tak "programují" (=znásilňují) děti jako Plejáďané (=podobně, jako to dělají s kostýmem Ježíše).. Protože děti, které reálně žily v minulých životech na jiných planetách, existují (=se sem také v menší míře inkarnují). Některé si to ale samozřejmě mohou myslet kvůli SRA plejádskému programování (ve skutečnosti to je tak, že se DS zaměřuje na reinkarnované lidi / vyhledává je). Zároveň simulace (svět se z větší části obrátil v simulaci jen na základě hřešení lidí..) potřebuje "světlo"=děti, které programuje skrze běžné vzdělávací systémy (i skrze rodiče = prakticky skrze skoro vše: televize, učitelé, rodiče, zmanipulovaní spolužáci atd.).

Same girl. Same. I definitely "missed out" pic.twitter.com/y5eAeijLee

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Zároveň se ta simulace ale sama "vyvíjí" / programuje / mění v reálném čase skrze kolektivní vědomí všech lidí - např. kolem 2003 jsem hrála jednu počítačovou hru, do které když přišel "update" (=vylepšená verze), obsahovala světelné bytosti. Tehdy jsem si řekla, že bych se taky mohla přetransformovat na světelnou bytost (ale zároveň mít možnost i normálního těla) - však jsem měla v podvědomí jeden z alterů, která má normální tělo, ale když nějak medituje/modlí se, tak se jí může forma změnit do světla. No ale tehdy se mi (po celodenním hraní) v noci zdál sen, že jsem vstoupila do té počítačové hry a změnila jsem se do té světelné bytosti (nebo tak něco na ten způsob). Nikdo tohle nevěděl, ale o pár let později jsem ve snu ovlivnila reálné lidi, aby vyrobili anime podle mých názorů, které jsem jim telepaticky nastínila jako "jejich dobrý nápad, který by mohl diváky zaujmout a vydělat peníze" - a v jednom dílu reálně ta hlavní hrdinka hraje počítačovou hru, do které pak vstoupí a v realitě se změní na světelnou bytost pak. Jak byste to reálně vysvětlili než že lidé mohou částečně programovat/ovlivňovat atd. realitu, a proto DS vyhledává "silnější duše", které chce ovládat ve svůj prospěch? (a příp. některé okultní společnosti to sice mohou myslet k dobru všech, přičemž ale obětují něčí svobodu=zotročují děti)


In the book I describe several memories of the Order investing tremendous amounts of time, effort, manpower and finances on the spiritual training and spiritually-themed programming of their infants and children. Some readers may ask, “Why on earth do they go to such a great lengths to instill occult beliefs in their children?” The answer is that the Jesuit Order in its dark side completely believes in the concepts of ascension (into immortality, bliss and fulfilment) and descension (into mortality and hell). Religion is a great motivator, as seen historically and around the world, and the Jesuits are no exception. They are fervent in their beliefs in ascension and descension to a degree that would put to shame many of the most fervent believers in many faiths. They spend a great deal of time passing their beliefs on to each new generation, as my memories illustrates, and believe that children must be introduced very early to these concepts in order to fully believe and grasp such concepts. As very young children learn best through concrete experiences, they train and program children through the use of older cult members dressed up as spiritual entities, and take them through studios designed to look like locations in the spiritual realms or dimensions. They believe that without these early concrete experiences, the child when older will eventually have much greater difficulty in accessing the dimensions, and seeing, hearing and interacting with immortal beings who assist with ascension.

Programming studio: These are large dedicated rooms or areas for programming in the cult facilities. These studios would rival the best of any Hollywood filming studio. They can be designed to look like any place that the programmers need, e.g., space ships, pyramids, underwater caverns, the city of Troy, a circus, etc. They have state-of-the-art lighting, animatronics, holograms, walls, ceiling, and floors that are screens that can display any scenario, and other audio-visual technologies to create extremely realistic experiences for the child being programmed in them. During programming scenarios, the adults and older children will put on costumes and act out the scenes (for instance, in a ‘hell’ scene, they may dress up as demons) that the programmers want the infants and children to learn about and eventually internalize.

The Fathers: Individuals in the Jesuit Order, both men and women, (yes, there are both sexes in the occultic side of this order, unlike the male only fathers in the public side) who have undergone the full training required and completed the coming of age ceremony at age 13 (described later in this book), are titled ‘fathers’. For instance, as a child, I called my primary mentor, “Father Mattheo”.
As the Order understands the importance of attachment and community for mind control, each child raised in the Order will be given 12 primary Fathers to be bonded to from infancy. Three of these 12 will be designed as the child’s primary programmers, and the child will be conditioned to bond most strongly with these three fathers. This bonding starts in the womb, then throughout infancy and childhood. It is common for individuals in the Order to be assigned three new primary programmers as they become adults. This is to ensure that the person continues to be bonded to agents capable of controlling them as their original programmers age, and that there is no risk of losing control over that individual should their original programmers die. These new programmers are typically selected from among peers who he/she is already very close to, such as a twin, a classmate (who is as close to them as any biological sister or brother could be), or a close mentor.

Class: At the age of six, children raised in the Jesuit programming facilities are assigned to a class consisting of eleven other children their own age, to create a group of twelve for each class. There are multiple classes within each facility, and each class will have their own dormitory. These children eat together, sleep together, go to classes together, go through physical training together, and bond extremely closely to one another. The fathers tell them that they are “sisters” and “brothers”. The children consider their classmates to be sisters and brothers, emotionally, even if not genetically. Along with the fathers, these classmates comprise the child’s “family” when growing up in the facility.

Mage: The Jesuit Order is very occultic. Each child will have spiritual mentors who have achieved the status of a mage, an individual who has become extremely well versed in occultic knowledge, incantations, spells, and rituals over many years of training, intense study and testing. Mages are expected to mentor those younger than them, and to help raise up a new generation of mages. They are skilled in oral teaching, ancient languages and are often master storytellers, since much of the information is also passed down in oral form. All children are expected to become mages themselves. I use the term ‘mage’ instead of other terms for practitioners of the occult arts, such as ‘wizard’, ‘sorcerer’, ‘magician’ or ‘witch’ as this is the term that parts used when sharing their memories.

Ascended Master: This is considered by the Jesuits the highest form of spiritual achievement. These individuals are considered as close to ascension as a human being can achieve while still walking the earth.

Immortal: The Order believe that immortals are beings who are trying to help mankind ascend and become like them, and to teach them how to overcome their mortal flesh. “Overcoming the mortal flesh” includes suppressing the desires within a human being that make them flinch away from interacting with these beings, and accepting the pain and long, difficult training that the fathers believe is necessary to ascend. The Jesuit fathers utterly and completely believe in these immortals, and in the theology of ascension and descension.


My birth name is Lucient, but my daily name is Lucia. I am usually called Luce. This is the name of my ‘cult host’, or the part that presents during
my cult life in the facility. As my cult life was the majority of my life until my escape in 2007, with only limited time in the presentations
in different countries, Luce is the part of me who feels most like the ‘real me’.

Mengele and Hilde work with me still, although my main influence are the fathers I love. Mengele and Hilde praise me for doing well and acting “intelligently”
in different situations, but as Luce, I looked forward each day to the time I get to spend with the fathers I love.

For the first three years of life, life was regimented according to a strict routine. Early morning assessments are done quickly, with the fathers checking
at regular intervals if prior programs installed are still intact. In between, there is holding and cuddling; these times too is scheduled. Later
in the day, I learn the new day’s task(s). There is always, always something new to be learned or practice designed to build further on old skills previously learned.

I felt like a miniature performer as the tasks continued day after day: learn to swim (and see how long I could endure in the water in one early test);
learn to crawl across a narrow bridge with water on both sides, and see if I could push another baby crawling across the same bridge into the water;
learn to open my little legs on cue from a trainer (for sexual training); learn to switch out parts on cue with colored lights and tones, and many more tasks.

For the first three years, the children in the order are dressed in short white robes. Between three and five years old, the children wear brown tunics and leggings,
then graduate to an acolyte’s hooded brown robes at six years old. The older children find us younger children adorable. They enjoy interacting with me
and the other infants, and will often come by and stroke our little cheeks and hands, or tell us that one day we will be big and have fun like they do.
I love this attention and want to grow up to wear an acolyte’s brown robe one day, and eventually at 13 years old, complete the coming of age ceremony
and earn my adult name. I know that this will require learning many, many new skills and knowledge, and at this age, as the cult host, I am eager to learn.

Years later, when I was healing, I had trouble with the term “host”, and especially its definition: an amnesic part that lives a life without abuse,
or any knowledge of abuse. My host knew well that she was being raised within an occultic society. This was the only world she knew both as a child
and as an adult. She knew about much of the abuse, and about the parts. She was allowed to watch and help monitor the different parts that presented when
living in various countries. She was also one of my most deeply cult-loyal parts, because with all of her heart, she loved the fathers she had attached to.
This feeling was true even during adulthood, which made leaving the order later in life very, very difficult. I missed the fathers when I didn’t see or hear
from them regularly, and not talking to them would trigger intense grief.

I am 12 months old. Father Jerome has tied me to his waist with a thick rope. He is playing the role of a system controller. My role is to obey everything
he tells me, quickly and without error.

“Pick up those blocks,” he says, “and stack the red ones together and the blue ones together”. I quickly kneel by the blocks and do this task.
When I am done, he says, “Good, good”. In my role as a system part, I am learning how important instant obedience to my controllers is.
The rope represents authority. The controller, being played today by Father Jerome, is always wearing the rope, and the system parts are tied to the controller by ropes.

It is a few days later. We are walking quickly and go to a field with lots of rocks. “Pick up the rocks, and put them in this corner of the field,”
he orders, pointing near the intersection of two stone walls. I begin picking up rocks while he oversees what I do. I am little and tire quickly,
and his job is to encourage me to complete the task. Finally, we rest.

“You are listening well, and I am proud of you, Delta 34” he says. Jerome is dressed as Orgus, one of my delta controllers, and even in this menial task,
I must obey him. The rocks represent memories, and he is teaching me to take them and put them in the correct area of the field. The field is divided up
into squares labeled with various names and runes. I must match the rock and its rune with the storage rune.

After a period of rest, we eat some bread and drink some water then go back to our task. “Delta 34, put these memories into this storage file,”
Orgus commands, pointing to an area of the field marked with a rune that means “Low security”. Quickly, obediently, I do so. “Delta 34, pass this memory
into this file,” he commands again, and I take the rock into a storage file marked “Medium security”. I already know that rocks that are “high security”
must be passed back to Orgus, to put into a special high security vault deep beneath us.

I am 18 months old. I have a rope tied around my waist. I am a gamma system controller, and tied to me by thick ropes are small children of my own age.
There are six children. I have been told that my job is to ensure that they are completely obedient to me. These children represent my system parts.
My job is to protect them by ensuring obedience to all commands from the programmers.

“You can walk around this house, but do not touch any of the candy in the yellow room,” I am told by Father Carlotti, who is dressed in the costume of
a master controller from the galaxy Pleiades. He has the stars of Pleiades scattered over a dark, midnight blue sky, and is wearing the runes and codes
that signify his status. System controllers such as gamma system controllers take their orders from master controllers inside. Their orders must always,
always, be utterly obeyed.

The children and I walk together into different rooms in the house. I have to tug on the ropes of a few to get them to follow. One room is painted with
bright yellow walls, and this color, and the huge table in the middle of the room, attract us all. The children and I eagerly walk towards the table,
where there are piles of candies in glass bowls.

The children are hungry, since they have not eaten yet, and it is midday. They begin pulling me towards the table. “No, no, children!” I say desperately.
“We were told not to touch the candy”.

I try to pull them away, but I am not strong enough to stop all of them pulling at me at once. One little girl, who looks so much like me, grabs a piece of
soft divinity off the table and starts eating it. I try to pull her away, but it is too late; she has disobeyed the order.

Suddenly, she jerks in a violent seizure, turning blue. The other children stop their own rush towards the table. With frightened eyes we watch as this
child continues seizing, and then dies. The candy must have poison in it, and she has disobeyed and died as a result. But I am responsible for her obedience,
and with guilt and shame, realize that it is my fault that she died.

Pleiades (Father Carlotti) comes into the room and looks with anger and disgust at what has happened. “You killed her!” he tells me. “You didn’t make sure
she obeyed you! A controller always makes sure that their system obeys them. You failed her!”

I feel terrible, but worse is to come. Now, as I move with the children around the house, I must drag this dead child around with me.

“You are feeling the weight of your failure,” Pleiades (Father Carlotti) says. I feel terrible, and start crying. A child, one put into my care, has died,
because I failed to ensure her obedience to a command from the master controller for my system. I crumple to the floor, heartbroken, as I weep.

“Stop crying and do your job,” he says sternly. “Don’t let any more of your children die”.

He then gives another command. “Do not let any of the children touch the toys in the blue room”. The blue room is one we saw when walking through,
but on this round of the house, I see toys on the floor: blocks of various colors, puzzles, picture books, and sparkly, beautiful dolls and balls.
The children, who seem intent on disobeying me in spite of what happened in the yellow room, try to pull me over with them to the toys on the floor.

“No, no, children, no!” I scream. I pull with all of my strength, trying to pull them away. But the children wear me down, and one of them picks up
a shiny red ball. Suddenly, there is a scream, and the child falls down dead. With a feeling of despair, I realize that this toy, too, contains poison.
I am now dragging two dead children around from the ropes tied to my waist, and I am very tired. But the other children are now very quiet and seem willing to
listen to me when I tell them not to touch anything at all in the house unless I give them permission. We sit in the middle of a red room, and Pleiades
(Father Carlotti) enters. “You may all have a drink of juice,” he says, and he pours out a cup for each of us. The juice tastes good, and I am relieved that no death results.

“Only allow them to do the things I tell you to,” he says. “This is the only way to ensure their safety”. I nod my understanding.

The children and I stay in this terrible house for two days. I am dragging the two dead children, reminders of what happens when system controller allows
parts to disobey their master controller. During the day, Pleiades (Father Carlotti) comes at intervals, and lets us eat, or allows us to play with only
certain toys, or rest. The children, who are still alive, and I sleep together, utterly exhausted by the end of the day, tied together, on a mat on the floor.

By the second day, the bodies of the two children who died begin to smell. The other children and I feel ill from the smell, and Pleiades (Father Carlotti)
returns. “You are smelling the stench of disobedience,” he tells us. I wonder how long I must drag these bodies around. I am feeling tired, ill, and sick of it all.

Finally, Pleiades returns again, gives a code, and I go inside. He then unties me from the children, and Lucia, my cult host, is sent out to take a shower
and then rest in my dorm room. I am tired indeed and realize that being a controller is a great responsibility. The lives of those under me depend upon
my ensuring complete obedience. I go to sleep, dreaming of saving children, while I am yelling orders at them, frantic to save their lives.

This memory caused me to cry for days when I first had it. I felt overwhelmed by guilt, sadness, grief, and then, finally, anger at Carlotti
and the other fathers for putting me through such a terrible setup at such a young age. This is how the Jesuits train the internal controllers
and master controllers to do their jobs: it is at the threat of loss of life if they should fail, not just for them, but for those they are supposed to protect.

I now realized why for years, my system controllers had been fighting me so hard, when I asked them to stop doing their cult jobs. They were desperately,
desperately, trying to save the lives of children that they loved. They were terrified to disobey the master controllers over them inside, who I had yet to meet
at that point in my healing. The lessons of absolute obedience, of never failing, and of controlling inside parts, had been instilled through this and numerous similar setups.


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Mengele

Mengele ran an infamous (within the occultic world) research center (“the institute”) where he employed the top trainers within the 12 societies, who continued his research under his (brutal) supervision on end point trauma (trauma that takes the subject to physical or psychological death) and other traumas, and the effect on the human psyche. The volumes and volumes of carefully documented research data from that time are still held within the Vatican vaults, and have been replicated and shared throughout the world. The research that he began is still ongoing, as the search for better, “unbreakable” methods of programming continues. One of the larger research centers for experimental programming is on the West Coast of the United States; the large research facility is underground, and is combined with sophisticated milab (military laboratory) research. Another is in East Berlin; and another is in Prague, and yet another one exists in Rome.
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Mengele (“Herr Josef” as I knew him) was head of the programming labs during this time. There was one lab in Italy, another in East Germany,
and another in Switzerland at this time. He had students who walked around and mimicked him, assisting him. His main assistant was a young woman named “Hilde”
with blond hair, blue eyes and an ice cold manner much of the time. Hilde was extremely efficient, and knew exactly what he wanted. Herr Josef was not
one of the three Fathers I loved (bonded to primarily) but he was a primary trainer, and I bonded to him out of necessity and survival.

Mengele did not value human life at all. He would kill 99 babies in order to find one baby he felt was “worth keeping” out of a batch.
He was terribly manipulative as well. Babies in the nurseries were punished terribly for disobedience. If a baby held onto the bars of the crib,
because the baby didn’t want to be taken out to be tortured (programmed), Mengele would chop the hand off in front of the other babies, as an “object lesson”.
All babies would watch this scene with round wide eyes and horror, as the consequences of disobedience or hesitation were shown dramatically.
Herr Josef would say “That was a BAD baby; you don’t want to be a BAD baby” and all the babies, including me, made the instant decision to never be the “bad baby”.

Only ten babies out of a thousand would survive the first six months in this kind of environment. Mengele and his programmers insisted on absolute,
complete obedience even in infancy, including allowing sexual abuse (babies were taught to open their legs on cue and allow this sadistic cruelty without crying),
as well as other forms of abuse. If a baby cried too long after a programming session, or failed to greet Mengele with a smile and outstretched arms
even after a previous day of unthinkable pain, the baby would be placed in a sliding box that would be locked for a day, abandoned in the dark as punishment
for disobedience or “bad behavior”. The baby would be taken out, frantic to be held, and told to never disobey again, or they would be kept in the box “forever”.

When I was rewarded for performing well: I would be held by a nanny who rocked me and gave me a bottle, and who would then take me to a window
to get a peek at the outside world and sunshine. Or the Fathers I loved would come and spend the precious 15 minutes a day that I cherished,
telling me they loved me, holding me, and teaching me what they expected (including allowing sexual abuse).

Mengele had several top assistants who were younger (teens) that I began bonding to. By age 12, children in the Order are considered adults,
and they by age 13 were full trainers. One would become my primary trainer during most of my childhood, and was a Father I loved; her name was
Father Matthew and I wanted to be just like her when I grew up.

As soon as I could toddle around, I tried to follow her around any time I was allowed to. By age two, I was allowed to wear a little white coat
like Fr. Matthew’s, and tried to act and sound like her. I wanted to be a head trainer just like her, and she and the other Fathers said that one day
I would, because I did very, very well and learned quickly. Most importantly, I had survived many of the brutal tests of strength and intelligence
that Mengele put infants through during the first year of life; I was considered a “keeper” and to have potential by him and the other fathers.

Any infant that survived the facility during this time period was at the top of the charts for strength, intelligence and survival instinct.
Those who would be chosen for leadership also had another quality that I had shown by trying to save the little girl next to me: the ability to
look out for the interests of others, and the common good. All I knew is that life the first three years was a constant round of pain, testing and sadness
with all too few moments of nurture and bonding.

I am in the infant nursery at some point later in time. There are dozens of us infants in this room. We are in little metal cribs with metal rails,
on mattresses with white sheets. We all wear little white soft long shirts and linen diapers, and can see each other through the bars of our cribs,
or when we pull ourselves up to stand and peek over. Today, one of the other babies in the nursery is pulling himself up, and is energetically trying
to climb over the raised rail of his crib. Interested, I pull myself upright, using the rail of my crib, to get a better view of what he is doing.
He tries to climb over, drops back, then keeps trying, until finally, he falls right over onto the white tiled floor with a “thump!”

All of us other babies stare, and wonder if we can do the same; it looks like fun! The baby who escaped happily crawls around to the other cribs,
as if urging us to join him. He seems to act a bit triumphant and proud of himself. Then, he crawls towards the main door to the nursery, which seems to be
the way out since that is where all the trainers go through when they leave. Suddenly, footsteps are heard, the door swings open, and an enraged Mengele
comes stomping into the nursery. His glasses and hair are quivering with rage.

He yanks the little boy baby on the floor up by one arm, and takes him over to a large wooden table in the middle of the room. He takes a large steel
cleaver off a nearby table, and suddenly he chops the infant’s hands off on the table top, with loud “thunks”. All of us other infants stare at this scene
with wide eyes of horror. We are silent, too terrified to even scream. Then, Mengele takes the little boy baby, and hangs him upside down from a hook
in the middle of the nursery, to bleed to death in front of us all. The blood drips down, and the terrified baby screams as his white shirt turns scarlet,
until finally, his cries slowly stop as the life ebbs out of him in spurts.

During this act of dying, Mengele glares at the rest of us infants, and screams in German, “This is what happens to “bad babies” who don’t obey or try to get away!”
Terrified at what I have just witnessed, shaking inside, I decide then not to try to crawl out of my crib, regardless of how wrong things feel in this place.
I decide to bury these feelings of wanting to escape deep inside, because I very much want to live. Being the object of Mengele’s anger is a very,
very bad situation to be in, and I try to conform to what he wants as best as I can, even at this young age.

Mengele could be unutterably cruel, as this scene demonstrates. In our facility in Italy, he was the top trainer, due to the large amount of new programming
information that he developed during the war years. This is why in occult groups, he is at times referred to as “the father of modern programming”.
He discovered that fetuses and very young infants could be programmed, and that in fact, programming done at these impressionable ages when the brain
is developing rapidly, is less likely to break down later in life.

Being raised in a cult facility just north of Rome, Italy, the memories I share in this section are some of my earliest ones. I have other memories of Mengele,
who I believe, along with Hilde, his blond, blue-eyed assistant, were both dissociative. I believe that they were products of the extreme and cruel programming
methods of the early 1900s, when attachment was less understood, and sociopathic personalities were more likely to develop. As far as I know, Hilde,
who was raised with him and endured the horrors of their childhood together with him, was the only human being that he trusted, although he did obey orders
from those who paid him to program their children, both in Italy and other countries.

Mengele and Hilde were two of my infant trainers, but not my only ones (thank goodness!). I shudder to think of what kind of human being I would have grown up
to be if I had not also experienced the kindness at times from the Jesuit fathers who were my primary attachments.

Survival of the Fittest
Mengele liked to use ‘survival of the fittest’ setups to cull out the weakest babies, and ensure that only the fastest, strongest, most intelligent
babies were kept. Fortunately, due to the large numbers of babies that died, this setup was phased out quickly in the Order after his death.
By then, I was an adult, and my influence as a trainer, along with that of Mattie, another top trainer, caused this change. We argued successfully
that this method was needless, since there were other ways of assessing these qualities. We were also concerned about the long-term impact on the Order’s unity,
longevity and prosperity, if all our members believed deep in their unconscious minds that their peers were competitors for basic needs, and that the only way for them to survive was for their peers to die.

I can crawl, quickly, now that I am four months old, with soft curly brown hair starting to grow that matches the color of my brown eyes. I am athletic and fast,
and perform well in the physical assessments. Today, I am in a small cage with bars. I can see two dozen other similar cages in the room, each containing a baby.
I am hungry and thirsty, since I have not been fed for several hours. In the middle of the room are three bottles with formula. I look hungrily at them,
I want one! Suddenly, the doors to all of the cages lift simultaneously, and a baby race is on. We all crawl as fast as we can to get to the bottles in the middle of the room.

I, and two of the other fastest babies get there first. Breathing hard, I grab a bottle and start drinking the life-giving, nourishing formula.
But two other babies are trying to grab the bottle away from me, they are hungry too. There is a fist grabbing for the bottle, and another baby is climbing
onto my back. I have to fight them off, kicking, biting, twisting and turning my back on them, all the while trying to drink the formula as quickly as possible.
I am able to successfully keep my bottle and fend off the other hungry babies, using my strong, chubby little legs to kick some away, and get enough formula
in me to allay my hunger – and to survive. After a few days of this scenario, the weakest babies are crawling extremely slowly, and I, along with two other
of the strongest babies are able to drink a full bottle with barely any resistance from the others.

Mengele walks into the room and picks one of the babies up who is drinking formula, cuddles him, and praises us three, looking at us with a smile.
“You are good babies, strong and smart,” he tells us. He then goes around the room, and one by one, he hangs a baby from a hook through its gut,
in the middle of the room. “This was a weak baby,” he says derisively. “This baby didn’t try hard enough”. He hangs others of the “weak” babies from hooks,
and horrified, we three survivors watch. I realize deeply that, in order to survive, I must perform well. Surviving means performing well for Mengele,
and I learn quickly to be fast and smart – to find the best way to do something. I don’t want to end up on a hook, hanging in the middle of a room.

I am a toddler, several months later, and I hate Mengele, on whom my survival depends. Once again, I am in a cage in a room, with doors that can rise.
Next to me is another toddler my age, a little girl. I smile at her, and she smiles at me. In the middle of the room is some food and water, and I already know what will happen.

Suddenly, the doors to our cages lift, and we all run to the middle, trying to fight off each other in a melee that includes mashed faces from tiny fists,
kicking, and grabbing. I grab some food, which I eat quickly, grab a drink, and return to my cage.

This happens for two more days, but on this third day, I notice that the little girl in the cage next to me is weakening. I am starting to notice others
more at this age, and seeing her look this way bothers me – a lot. When the doors lift, I race to the middle, grab some food, eat a quick bite, then return
back to my cage. I then offer some of the food in my little fist to this other toddler. She smiles gratefully at me, but doesn’t seem to want to eat;
I wonder why, since I was extremely hungry before I ate some of the food. I go over to her cage, and try to put it in her mouth, but she doesn’t eat,
to my huge distress. I realize now as an adult that she was probably dehydrated and too weak to eat. “Eat, eat, eat” I tell her over and over,
but even when I try to put the food in her mouth, she just closes her eyes and falls asleep.

The next morning, she dies and is taken away. As I watch her body being carried out, I cry silently, hiding my tears from Mengele, who would have punished
this type of weakness. Fortunately, the fathers were more understanding, and disagreed at times with his methods.

That night, Mattheo, the father I love most of all, notices that I am upset. In my high-pitched little toddler voice, I sob and tell him about the other little girl.

“I am glad that you cared,” he says. “But even more glad that you lived. There simply wasn’t enough food for all of the babies”. While he is trying
to promote my acceptance, I can see in his eyes that he is sad and disturbed, too.

“I wanted to share, but she wouldn’t eat,” I say, crying.

“She was too weak to eat,” he says. “But it was good of you to try. And very smart of you to try to find a way to help her”.

Mattheo is a rising leader in the Order, and I am glad that he understands. In a few more years, he will be one of the fathers who initiates stopping
these survival exercises, with the support of the younger trainers. I love Mattheo and the other fathers, and trust him more than I trust Mengele.
But Mengele will never, ever suspect how I feel, because I want to survive, and Mattheo has made it clear that he wants me to live, too.

Many of the infants programmed by Mengele and other trainers in this type of scenario struggled with issues around food all of their lives.
When adults, later in life, they hoard food, or gain weight, or become anorexic. Even as a young child, when hosted in my American presentation,
I would sneak food and hide it under my pillow. My family teased me relentlessly about this habit, but allowed it, perhaps sensing the deep psychological need to do so.

Mattheo and the other fathers argued successfully to discontinue these methods for several reasons. One was seeing disturbances related to food in the children
that survived. But another was that this programming promoted survival at the expense of others, while the Jesuits wanted their leaders to think of the good of all,
when leading teams on missions; they wanted to promote a cohesive working together and bonding with each other that is part of life in the order,
and this training went against it. Later generations - those after G7 in the Jesuit Order - would not have to undergo these extreme setups.

Assassin Training (ages 2-4)
The early assassin training is continued during the second year of life. The parts that will do physical assassinations are taught to wring the necks
of kittens and other small animals.

During the second half of this year the toddler will undergo the extremely cruel training to kill that Mengele developed. The child will be placed
in a cage with other children the same age (there are thirteen cages in all, with six on the bottom, four in the middle, two above and one at the very top.

The children in the bottom six cages undergo terrible abuse. The children above urinate and defecate on them, since they are at the bottom.
They are also painfully raped frequently, and are not given any food or water. It is a type of “hell” for a small child. Once a day the toddler is taken out,
and a kitten is placed in front of them. Mengele then would give the order, “Papa says ‘Kill’”. They are expected to instantly snap the neck.
If there is the slightest hesitation, or the child refuses, they are placed back in the bottom row of cages, where the terrible deprivation and abuse occur.

The next day, the child is given another chance. The children that survive learn to instantly and without thinking obey the order. If they do, then Mengele
would hold the child in his lap; tell them what a good job they did, and give them a treat.

After two weeks, the child will be either on the top two rows, or dead. By then, Mengele would spend significant time praising the child, bonding with them,
for doing such a “good job”. The animals to be killed were placed in the center of a red circle, and they become bigger. Finally, a small infant is placed
in the center of the red circle, the child is given a knife, and the command is given. If the child refuses, they are placed back in the bottom row of cages,
and the training begins all over again until they obey or die.

This is a primary assassin code: “Papa says kill” and is used by all Jesuit Fathers and top trainers as well.


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Alice in Wonderland

It is a common misconception that “hosts” or “presenters” have been protected, or have undergone less programming or trauma than other systems. On the contrary, the presentation is often one of the most extensively programmed systems in the survivor of international occultic programming. It can be some of the most difficult programming to dismantle since basically, this involves looking at their own programming.

In most international occultic groups, the child spends the first three years fulltime at a cult facility, being continuously programmed. At age three, the child will also be placed within several host families around the world. The child may grow up with anywhere from two to seven families in different countries, and will typically spend some time each year with each of these families building a “life story”. School photos are taken, and a cover identity created in the countries which they anticipate the child will be working for them as they grow older into adulthood. The families will be given photos of the child (or a look-alike) in infancy for photo albums. These host families will have programming to prevent the child and the host parents from bonding with each other, since the cult wants the child to always maintain their primary bond with the primary programmers. The true host and core will always only be allowed to bond with these programmers.


Because maintaining the amnesia between presentations, and the prevention of remembering the cult life, is such an important cult goal, there will be several programs used to keep the amnesia in place. One of the major ones is “Alice in Wonderland” which will be described here as it is used by the Jesuits. Many other international groups also use this programming, or some form of it.

There are often three versions of the Alice programming installed, and each will be a backup for the other, in case one fails. Each will be described separately below. “White Alice” programming is designed to ensure the “host” parts does not remember any cult activity and believe that her “ordinary memories” of life are the whole picture. “Crazy Alice” programming is designed to make the “host” parts feel like they are going crazy, be afraid of going crazy and to return to the cult for “treatment” if they start remembering what they are not supposed to. “Black Alice” programming is designed to make the “host” parts afraid that they will hurt the people around them if they remember what they were told by the cult to not remember.

If is common for members of occultic international groups to have at least one presentation that goes by the name “Alice”. This is for a specific reason: this is a trigger for Wonderland programming. The programming starts in the womb (prenatally), it continues during infancy. For instance, the infant will be dressed in a “Dormouse” costume, and taught to drink tea that makes him/her sleepy on command, or as a Cheshire Cat, with an outside actor modeling the role of this part. The initial programming is continued and reinforced over the next few years in the programming studios,that have props and virtual reality films, as well as costumes and actors, until all parts for all three versions of the Alice programming understand and reliably perform their roles.

White Alice Programming
By age 3-5, the child will be taken to a large estate in France (or, other locations, depending on the group) for the full re-enactment of Alice in Wonderland programming. This is an elaborate setup, and occurs over the period of a week. White Alice (representing the presentation main controller who is heavily demonized) is dressed in the blue dress and white pinafore, with blond hair and blue eyes, and guides the child (who is dressed in the same way) through backwards houses, where people walk and talk backwards (a common cause of childhood dyslexia is the confusion this creates). Then they are taken to a setup street where things are not backwards, but “crooked” or off slightly, which is even more disorienting. The child must walk with Alice through houses where things are insanely wrong, where people talk nonsense, and the floors and roofs may be upside down, to teach the child not to trust reality.

Alice then brings the child at last to a place where they see the white rabbit (the primary trainer or bond dressed in a costume), and follow him “down the hole” (representing amnesia) to a room where the presentation stays behind, watching a movie (screen memories which account for the lapse of time). Alice agrees to always follow the white rabbit, to do what he/she tells her, on pain of her/his death; the back parts then take the child’s body through the rest of the setup. The child then enters a huge maze created from hedges. Soon, they are pursued by the “Jabberwocky” (a demonic presence), and must rely upon their theta skills to run and escape, and even leave the body and fly away. The white rabbit and Alice lead the child to safety, but at times will try to “trick” the child until the child learns to rely on themself instead of these capricious demonic “helpers”. The white rabbit is the primary love bond in this program, and controls Alice.


The child sleeps outdoors, trying to get out of the hedge, and runs across the queen of hearts and her court playing croquet (with the severed heads of human children used as the balls). The queen becomes very interested in using the child’s head (the child is constantly called “Alice” throughout the setup, to represent the presentations, since Alice in Wonderland is ultimately presentation programming to remain amnesic and rely on demonic help to do so).

The demonic “Alice” and cheshire cat help “rescue” the child, who then goes through the “valley of the shadow of death”. In the middle is a cottage; it is now nightime, and the weary child knocks at the door, to be greeted by a kindly woman. The child is fed, sleeps, and is warned to avoid the Jabberwocky, which seeks to kill the child. (The jabberwocky pursues the Alice characters, and punishes them if they are “disobedient” = going off the path to investigate interesting things put to the side as tests, or if Alice ever tries to leave Wonderland. Because the presentation parts live in Wonderland, they are told to never leave.)

During the night, the kindly woman gets up. The child is awake, vomiting from the effects of a mild poison they were given in the food. The woman calls in her familiars (wolves) and tries to kill the child, who cries out for help to “Alice” and the “Cheshire Cat” to rescue her. A mage also comes and helps rescue the child, who continues the journey, meeting other characters. Finally, the child ends up at the palace of the Queen of Hearts (a primary double bind, often a twin sister), who demands a sacrifice (the child was already told that the last child to complete the Alice scenarios will be her sacrifice). The children who live watch the final child come in and be sacrificed in a ritual. This reminds them to never be slow or tardy when coming to a “party” (ritual). The “parties” in the Alice in Wonderland books are always referring to rituals.

After performing a sacrifice and making agreement to always forget, and only remember what they saw on the screen (videos of presentation normal memories), the child then enters a garden with animated/demonic flowers that at first talk kindly to the child, but later turn on the child and attack them. Wasps come and sting the child, and the large caterpillar (the at first kindly guardian of the garden, played by another primary bond) tells the child what to do, and how to escape. The caterpillar then blows smoke over the child, which induces amnesia, and tells her to “always remember to forget” or the primary bond will be killed. The child (playing the Alice role) agrees, and takes a bite of the mushroom offered, which represents this agreement to only remember what she is told to remember.

The King and Queen of Hearts are individuals the child loves very much and has been bonded to. They often represent a twin or beloved brother and sister; or beloved cult parents. The love bond is represented by the heart, with the understanding by the child that if he or she ever remembers, and the amnesia breaks, these individuals will be killed. During one installation of the programming, the child is invited to break the Wonderland programming, and she or he sees a mock killing of their King or Queen of hearts.

Crazy Alice Programming
A part of the Alice in Wonderland (presenter) programming is the “Crazy Alice” programming, which is meant to warn the Alice controller (a presentation controller) to never allow memories to come up, or they will be labeled “insane” and extreme abuse will occur. This is often the root of insanity fears when a person first starts remembering their past; the presentation controllers know that if they remember, Crazy Alice is supposed to present.

In this setup, the child (now called “Alice” and dressed in the typical blue dress and white pinafore) is taken to a “mental institution” that looks like one from 400 years ago, where the “inmates” are chained, and who rant, rave and curse at her. The child is left there for days, with her only food being rancid water and rotten cabbage. The inmates (actually cult actors) hurl feces at her, verbally abuse her, and the custodians sexually abuse her while she is chained to the wall because of her “insanity” (remembering).

Because she is “sick”, and “mentally ill” Alice is taken regularly down to the basement for “treatment” which consists of electroshocks, drowning, and being held over a rat pit filled with hungry rats that are allowed to bite her feet and ankles. The child is told repeatedly that “remembering” or “telling” will have her labeled “crazy” and that she will be taken to the institution (or one similar) for “treatment”. This is part of developing the presenter amnesia and vows to never remember (or seek treatment).

During the hospital stay, a team of doctors in white coats walk through the ward and stay with Alice, and the head doctor (usually, a primary programmer) says “Alice is my favorite patient” and “I will do everything possible to help you get well”. Alice keeps a stuffed rabbit with her (“foo foo”) who at night seems to come alive and sexually abuses her (this is done with a hand puppet). When Alice reports the abuse the next day, the doctors look at her sadly, and insist that she is “sick” and “needs more treatment”.

There is a special room in the “hospital” for the religiously insane, with Bible studies and church meetings, where Alice is raped and abused by the “Christians” and “Jesus” in the hospital. After several weeks of this treatment, “Alice” is pronounced “cured” (e.g. this part is heavily traumatized and has learned to never disclose what is going on, and to promote presenter amnesia) and is allowed to leave.

This “hospital” is also part of the presentation re-programming. If the presentation amnesia begins to break down, and the individual remembers, the “doctors” (programmers) will come internally and take the parts that broke programming to the “hospital” internally for treatment (reprogramming).

This is also linked to recontact programming as well. The presentation is often programmed that if there is too much programming breakdown or remembering, to believe they are “sick” and “need to go to the hospital right away”. This is meant to get the survivor to an “approved” hospital or treatment center where they can be accessed, and reprogrammed.

Black Alice Programming
In another version of Alice programming, Alice has a “dark side” that comes out and kills everyone around her in a killing spree. The terrified presenter wakes up to a room full of bloody bodies, and is told that if she ever remembers, the “evil” inside of her will “escape” and she will kill her loved ones. This is a particularly cruel form of amnesia programming.

Black Alice wears a black dress, black stockings and shoes, and a white pinafore (covered with blood stains). She lives in Nightmare Wonderland, a black and terrifying version of the white wonderland. In Nightmare Wonderland, the prime terrors are re-enacted time and time again, such as rats that chase the child, large stinging insects; black woods filled with horrible creatures, huge caterpillars that look like maggots able to sting, etc. The woods and other areas of this wonderland (which includes a large cemetery) are also filled with dead bodies and rotting corpses, and zombie-like creatures chase the child.

Black Alice has often taught to “love death” and insists that she loves killing, and death. This controller terrifies the white presentation, who fears that she will come out if they “lose control” (e.g. by trying to break programming, or remembering too much).

During her creation, Black Alice is heavily tortured and traumatized by everyone around her except the dead in the room; the dead bodies are her only “comfort”. She has a rabbit called “Edward” who hates all living things, teaches her how to kill to protect herself (rewarding her with sex) and later encourages her to “kill, kill, kill” to give him something to eat. Edward is Black Alice’s only friend, and protects her in a nightmare world.

Black Alice is also a part of the child’s assassin programming, since for simple jobs she can switch out and do a kill, and the white presentation will be completely amnesic.


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Traveling the Dimensions

As part of their mage training, the toddler is taught to begin to travel in the spiritual realm. Before age 24 months, they will have learned to travel
to the First Dimension. Dimensional travel usually involves theta parts which have never had contact with the outside world other than
during their first creation in a black room. These parts are taught to leave the body through the application of intense torture
(electroshock, burning, skin peeling, cutting with razors, beating, flagellation, smothering, heart stoppage, freezing, burning or other types of trauma).

The First Dimension
Once the part can leave the body, they are accompanied by an older spiritual mentor, who travels with them to the first dimension. This dimension
is described in the Alice in Wonderland books (Lewis Carroll was an infamous occultist, and his books actually describe the demonic realms).
In the first dimension, plants and flowers talk, and the young child is fascinated by the seeming beauty of the landscape at first glance.
They are initially unaware of the dangers, but quickly learn: the flowers will try and grab the child and hold the child against their will;
or will beat upon or even try to bite the child. Oversized bees and insects also come, and can cause great pain.

The child traveling will cry out for help, and will be “rescued” by their spiritual mentor, who will take them back to Gaia (the physical world we inhabit here; that is the name for this dimension).

The controllers for the First dimension are a large cat (the “Cheshire cat” in the Alice books); a large, demonic caterpillar that can sting with ferocity,
and the white rabbit. These beings are actually demons that have been trapped in the dimension; they cannot leave it, but try to entice humans to visit them in order to ensnare their souls.

The Second Dimension
The second dimension is fire, and is inhabited by Vulcan. It is very hot, and the dimension is much like entering into an underworld with hot lava streams and fires.
The child and their mentor travels, enduring being chased by fire lizards and other creatures, until they meet up with Vulcan.

Other Dimensions
The other dimensions include:
- a dimension of extreme cold and ice, overseen by a demonic “ice queen”
- a “reverse world” where everything is reversed, causing extreme disorientation
- an underwater dimension overseen by neptune
- a dimension of extreme dark and nightmares, overseen by Charymedes (god of insanity and chaos) with harpies that chase the child and attempt to kill them
- a dimension (the 12th) of electricity charges, overseen by Electra

Each being that rules a dimension will always ask for a sacrifice of some kind from the child, in order for the child to be allowed to return to Gaia.
At first, the sacrifices might be “the screams of someone being tortured” or for the child to undergo torture themselves. As the child goes to the higher dimensions,
with worlds inhabited by beings such as Charymedes, the sacrifices become much more difficult, and can include betraying the person the child loves most,
or killing someone the child cares for, including their spiritual mentor(s).

Traveling the dimensions is considered a primary part of mage training; a mage does not become an ascended master until they have traveled to the 12th dimension,
or the 13th (travel to these dimensions involves being put to death for several minutes).

Helping the survivor
Jesuits are always international, highly trained assassins and information gatherers, and the grieving will be tremendous. This is when they will
need outside support, to vent the anger and grieving over the abuse and manipulations, and to hear that the Lord can forgive what they were forced to do from a very young age.

The survivor may cry out as Jeremiah did, “Why did I come forth from the womb to see labor and sorrow, That my days should be consumed with shame?"(Jer.20:18).
It can help them to understand that the Lord really does understand their grieving and pain, that He took that on the cross for them, and paid the price
for every death they were forced to participate in.

It can help the presentation to remind them that when they came to Jesus, while THEY were unaware of the back parts and their deeds,
Jesus knew all along – and forgave them, too; that this information doesn’t surprise Him. His love doesn’t change just because the survivor remembers
what they formerly didn’t.

As they attempt to break bonds with their early abusers, they will run headlong into feelings of abandonment and being alone, which are meant to prevent
their fully leaving. Leaving will mean giving up all of their deepest unconscious relationships, the ones formed during these earliest (amnesic) years
that have been wiped out from conscious memory.

It can help the survivor to understand that the Lord can fill their attachment pain, and stand in the place of father and mother to these young parts:
Ps.68:5. “A father of the fatherless, a defender of widows, is God in His holy habitation”.
Isaiah 66:13. “As one whom his mother comforts, So I will comfort you; And you shall be comforted in Jerusalem”.

It can be difficult for the presentation that came into therapy to realize that THEY are not the true “host” (which is placed behind an amnesic barrier).
The real “host” the first three years of life will be Jesuit, will have a Jesuit name, and will carry the memories of the first three years
that are wiped out when the child undergoes amnesia programming at age three prior to being placed within their host families.

An important part of a Jesuit system is the punishers. These punishers are modeled after people and spiritual beings the infant and child have seen
portrayed by actors and in VR from earliest infancy. The beings (actirs) come to the infant’s crib, talk to him or her, and tie themselves to the infant with
a slender cord, as they teach the infant how the being talks and acts. This becomes internalized, along with the demonic spirit they impart.

The head of the punishment systems for Jesuits are in several layers. In the false Christian layer, these will include a false Jesus (head punisher),
a false God, and a false Holy spirit. These parts, who are actually sabotagers and punishers, explain why the presentation can be very “Christian”
and yet not be actually listening to the Christian God; instead, their conscience, which is Jesuit-trained, will believe that they must obey “God”
and they may be completely misled into actually obeying the group and its directives and feel extremely guilty and even think they will “go to hell” if they disobey.

They will not know that these are Jesuit directives, however; they will believe that “God” is “telling them to stay with their husband (handler)”
or that they must “honor their Father and Mother (cult parents)”, etc. They will feel very “Christian” and “peaceful” when they obey these directives,
and feel guilt, confusion and anxiety when they disobey, until the programming is broken and they can differentiate between the Lord and the false god placed within.

Core Level punishers will include Vulcan and Prometheus, and the main reprogramming system will be named Saturn (due to the numerous rings and levels of the punishments).

Internal Hell Punishment
The foundation of a Jesuit punishment system will be the deeply ingrained belief, from the core outwards, that the systems must not be allowed to descend
and thus enter into the punishments of “hell”. Since earliest infancy, and deep into the subconscious and unconscious, this fear of descending
(through disobedience to the order’s directives, or to the pantheon) is inculcated. All core controllers for all systems will unconsciously believe
that the punishments are “good” since they are keeping the systems and core from “going to hell” or descending into a mortal state. The pain
of the programming (re-experiencing) is seen as “proof” that the systems are descending, since ascended systems “do not feel pain” in the programming scripts.

This will be translated in the presentation into a deep fear of angering God, and an unusual ability to “hear from the Lord” and “hear His direction”
which is actually listening to the false god planted inside in order to prevent experiencing the excruciating pain that will result if they disobey.
The presentation may experience severe guilt at the thought of the smallest infraction, or fear going to hell for even slight errors, due to the unconscious pain of this programming.

Vulcan
Vulcan is the primary core level punisher, and if he fails in his duty, a large black bird swoops down on him, tearing out his liver and entrails and eats them.

This is based upon primary infant traumas that involve the Jesuit Fathers bringing a bird into the infant’s crib, and allowing its talons to tear at the infant.
The traumatized infant retains this memory, which is built upon over the years. Often this is reinforced with virtual reality, with a highly realistic
predatory bird swooping down and piercing the bowels. Physical needles and knives are used for the initial traumatic pain.

Vulcan is taught to punish the systems, and even the core, for severe disobedience and/or betrayal. The worst type of disobedience includes failure to
maintain contact with the Fathers or their representatives, and trying to leave the Order. To the Jesuits, an individual attempting to leave
is considered a traitor of the highest degree. They are actually considered “insane” since only insanity, to their thinking, could cause a person to take
the path to descension, feeling the body and mortality, and giving up what they consider “godhood” and choosing to “go to hell”. The members of
the Order literally believe that the person choosing to leave is straight on the path to hell, and they will do anything to try and “save” them from this path.

This “salvation” can and will include extreme torture and reprogramming, in order to put the person “back on the right path”. They believe that these measures
are needed to bring the person to their “senses”.

Prometheus
Under Vulcan is Prometheus, the main white system (presentations) controller punisher. His punishments include fire, burning, and intense pain,
depending upon the traumas the person has undergone.

Saturn
Saturn will be the primary reprogramming system, and is responsible for reprogramming the systems nightly with the traumas described above.
Horrific reprogramming traumas will be instilled, first physically and later using virtual reality. Small core-level infants will be dropped,
pounded, shocked, raped, burned, cut, eaten on by rats, blinded by needles, suffocated and otherwise traumatized during the reprogramming.

Jesuit systems reprogram constantly, with the reprogramming sequences changing every two hours throughout the day. This ensures that all systems are reprogrammed daily.

Althea (the Tree of Life)
These will include the “unholy trinity” of the Father (Satan), the Son (the antichrist and the beast) and the Spirit (Althea, the tree of life).
The Fathers worship all three. In fact, the Arbor de Vitae monastery just north of Rome (the primary Jesuit monastery) is believed to be the dwelling place
of Althea, the tree of life. This wicked creature lives in the basement of the monastery, and the young children (and adults) will often hear her
moaning at night to be fed. And they do feed her, at regular intervals, with sacrifices of every human variety.

The Jesuit children are taught from infancy to participate in these rituals; as infants, the Fathers place their hands over a baby’s, and teach them to make
the sacrifice. As the child gets older, they must take a more active role, or suffer severe punishment by Althea (which appears at times like a huge willow
whose branches “whip” the child terribly).

When the tree of life is pulled out, the three roots (white, black and silver gray) must also be rooted out, since these represent early infant demonic traumas
used in installing the roots of the tree of life and the q’ballah internally. This takes extensive prayer, seeking the Lord, and asking the Holy Spirit
to help the survivor overcome the fear of uprooting these demonic strongholds.

The Beast
The Beast has a room and a lair in the Vatican dedicated to him. This room supposedly dates from early Roman times, when sacrifices were conducted
in the original cave located there that the Vatican was built over. This angry and vindictive spirit makes its presence known, and is eagerly sought out
by the Fathers, since they believe he gives great power over enemies. The (internalized) Beast only knows and understands killing and destroying,
and gives energy to the punishment systems described previously, and will demand absolute obedience to it and the Pantheon, until the individual learns
their authority in Yeshua, and is able to break free.


Satan
Many times, it can take years of dedicated work to go beneath the tree and beast layers, and reach the true system master controller: Satan.
From pre-birth and birth dedication, this is the being the Jesuits truly serve, in both his incarnations: as satan (cruel, vicious, demanding,
destructive and lying) and Theo (kind, benevolent, manipulative, charming). The child will have been bonded to both.

This internalizes the satan identity for the core master controller, since the adults treat the child on satan’s throne as if he/she were satan himself,
in every way. The child is actually temporarily possessed, in that part, by satan during the ceremonies and judgments. The evil behavior convinces the survivor
that he/she is evil and anchors the belief in the part that they are actually satan.


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Fantasia

Walt Disney was an avowed Illuminist, and his goal when creating Disney productions was to introduce the general public to the occult, especially young
children, and to reinforce programming in those raised in the occult.

For instance, animals often “talk” in Disney films, and people can turn into animals, which are actually mage spells. The images are often dark and demonic
in the animated movies, and have become increasingly so in recent years.

Disney’s favorite film was Fantasia, in which he took classical music that was used to program young children with, and developed highly occultic themes
in the cartoons that accompany it. To the untrained eye, Fantasia seems a bit odd; but the individual in the occult understands that the themes of a mage
in training ("the sorceror’s assistant") who must turn to his more powerful mentor for help, and the Greek pantheon (in the famous rain sequence),
mythology and even the depiction of an occultic ritual and then the famous strains of ave maria (a Jesuit programming tune) end the film.

Fantasia is blatant occultic imagery throughout, and was used extensively in the 1950s through 1970s to program individuals with. It was superseded
in recent years by movies such as the Matrix, which depicts high-level programming, Labyrinth, and others.


Helping the Survivor
Because of the early and repeated childhood betrayals, and the fact that the true host and core and core splits will not present early in therapy,
the survivor will be very untrusting, and unable to bond normally with, anyone who tries to help them. The most common presentation is “detached”,
since the parts that can attach are hidden very deeply within and are reserved for the Jesuit Fathers only.

While the survivor will not at first present as “needy”, the attachment needs are still there, and will drive recontact programming unless the survivor
can learn to form healthy, safe attachments. This will be the challenge for both the survivor, and their helpers, since the wounded, angry parts within
will often test those they do bond with again and again, once they feel safe within the relationship.

Theta and spiritual attacks are difficult to bear for helpers, but the survivor will be completely unaware that they are occurring. They will need to learn
to pray, and ask inside, to find out what is happening with the parts that they are not co-conscious with yet. Once co-consciousness is established,
and the parts come to Christ and the demonic is renounced, the warfare will usually diminish, much to the relief of the survivor and their helpers.

It will take all of the emotional resources the survivor has, as well as outside support, and a strong walk with Yeshua, to face the original attachment pains,
that will go throughout early childhood, infancy and prenatally. This is when praying in the spirit, scripture study, journaling and talking with safe
support can help tremendously as the survivor grieves the past, and begins to build a life based upon a new foundation.

Often, Jesuit survivors have never known, or have had very limited contact with, anyone outside of the cult setting until they make the choice to break free.
They are literally surrounded from conception on by members of the Order, with their life’s work, friendships, host families and marriages all mapped out early on.
Their close friends will all be members; their spouses are always members, since they arrange the marriages; and their families are also Jesuits or members of one of the 12 societies.

The jobs they have held will often be at “cult” corporations, with bosses and peers all members. Nothing in the survivor’s environment was “left to chance”
which is why breaking free is truly a miracle. The person who helps the survivor will often be their first non-Jesuit friend, and it will take time for them
to learn to interact in “normal” or non-cult ways.

They will grieve tremendously at giving up their relationships with friends, family, mentors and the Fathers, in spite of the abuse, since this is the only “love”
they have ever experienced, and this “love” (trauma bonding) allowed them to psychologically survive childhood. As terrible as the Jesuit Fathers were,
they were the only consistent emotional bonds the child was allowed, and so the bonding is strong indeed, as well as the desire to “protect”
these loved ones through either loyalty, or amnesia, or both.

The survivor who fears facing their past is one who fears betraying those they love; they are often “held hostage” through the group’s control
or threatening to harm someone they love, whether a child, a mentee, a cult twin, or another relationship. To break free, the survivor must be shown,
and truly believe, that only the LORD can rescue and keep safe these loved ones.

They must also be willing to count the cost of getting out, which is very high: no contact at all with former family, friends or loved ones,
since they will all have been programmed to access the survivor. Few are willing to pay this price for freedom, and it is often the unconscious (unknown)
love bonds that draw the survivor back in.

It can help the survivor to understand the true cost of discipleship:
Luke 14:26
“If anyone comes to Me and does not hate his father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters, yes, and his own life also, he cannot be My disciple.
Matt. 19:29
And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or wife or children or lands, for My name’s sake, shall receive a hundredfold, and inherit eternal life
Mark 3:34, 35
And He looked around in a circle at those who sat about Him, and said, “Here are My mother and My brothers. For whoever does the will of God is My brother and My sister and mother.”


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Mage Training

All Jesuits undergo mage training. Mages are considered the “top” of the occultic hierarchy, over witches, wizards and other levels of occultism.
They are adept scholars, and study the ancient Babylonian manuscripts (which describe the first contacts between man and the “gods” or “ascended masters”
which are actually demonic entities), as well as the Egyptian, Roman and druidic writings.

The oldest manuscripts are considered the most reliable. A young mage is forced to memorize the oral histories and spells contained in these texts.
They learn to use books that demonically “come alive” and show scenes when certain spells are cast (much more entertaining than a normal picture book
to a 5-year-old). With the help of a mentor, they learn the original names of the animals, in order to call them to themselves, practicing
standing in the woods and calling rabbits, deer, birds and other normally shy creatures.

They learn to take the form of an animal, often a bird, or a predator such as a wolf. While this sounds impossible, mages do these things demonically.
The focus of mage craft is power and control. The young mage learns to battle in power battles, with the help of demonic forces. While young,
their spiritual shielding appears red; then they progress to green, then blue, and the most powerful mages have a bright blue-white emanation,
signifyiing extreme demonic "protection". The child travels to the fourth dimension, which is filled with ziggurats, and engages in power battles
at first beside their mentor (who protects them from being killed by malicious older mages), and then, as they grow in power, they learn to battle alone.

Mages often “pick battles” with other mages upon meeting them, to determine who is “stronger”. There is a constant positioning for power among these occultists,
who have extreme pride. (Můj komentář k tomuto článku ZDE!)

The mages also learn spells for creating a light; and later, spells and curses to cause illness, death, and the cloak of invisibility, among others.
The highest level of mage is the ascended master. This is a mage who has undergone death themselves many times, willingly, in order to ascend
to the highest dimension and “learn” from the other ascended masters. This is considered the highest level attainable in the occult world.

Demonic Chess
The Jesuit Fathers are accomplished “chess masters”. The term comes from the original, demonic origin of chess, which was first used by the ancient
Babylonians, then the Egyptians, then passed down through the centuries. The original form of chess is considered an important part of mage training.

During the game, the young child is taught to first control the easier, white pieces, which are made of stone. During the game, the pieces come demonically alive,
and they will try to turn on and attack the child. At first, the toddler needs the help of their spiritual mentor (the Father) to control the pieces
and to prevent being bitten and wounded terribly. As the child gets older, and stronger in the occult, they are eventually able to demonically control
and move the pieces on the board. They also learn to move and control the much more difficult black pieces in the same manner.

The winner of the game is allowed to ask the board for the answer to a question. If white wins, the answer will be written in black on the king’s square;
if black wins, the answer is written in shining silver on the black king’s square. The monarchs of Europe often played this form of chess in order to
get answers as to which battle strategy would be best to use, or to get “inside” information on their enemies. A true “chess master” is actually
an ascended master who is able to win frequently at this form of chess.

The occultic form of chess is one reason why there is a chessboard in the Alice in Wonderland books;
the game is actually based on a demonic game being played.

Coming of Age Ceremony
When a Jesuit is 12 years old, they undergo their coming of age ceremony, at which time they become a full Jesuit. This ceremony is held at the Vatican
for the top classes, and is done every year, as new classes “graduate”. The inner courts of the Vatican are cleared, and golden poles are erected throughout it.
The public is not allowed near the Vatican for the week before or after this ceremony, and since there is always a “no fly” rule for aircraft at all times,
the ceremony is highly secretive.

The first part involves going to Satan’s Throne at the heart of the Vatican, giving a sacrifice on the black alter there, descending to Satan’s throne
in the spiritual realm, and being given a name by Satan himself.

A few days later, the other, more horrific ceremony occurs. Top leadership from all 12 occultic societies that serve the Vatican travel to Rome,
and sit in the small coliseum in a designated area under their banner. There are banners representing the Order of the Knights Templar,
The Order of the Knights of Malta, Opus Dei, Magnificat, The Order of the Rosy Cross, Trinity, the Illuminati, and the other occultic societies
that are actually arms of the Vatican around the world. It is considered a great honor to be invited to this ceremony.

The Jesuit class comes out. On 1000 golden poles in the arena are tied infants, toddlers and young children, and one by one, the Jesuit trainees
must slaughter them. Around the arena are golden bowls which they use to catch the blood from each victim, which is then offered to Satan.
There are also golden bowls filled with wine, which the Jesuit trainees drink from when they are thirsty or emotionally overcome by the horror of what they are doing.


At the end of this ritual (called “the slaughter of the innocents”) the trainee is considered an ascended master and a full Jesuit father.
From then on, they are referred to as “Father” by others, and they take off the brown robe of the acolyte and don the black robe of the full Jesuit.
Due to the terrible nature of the ritual, some falter and cannot continue; they are killed by the other trainees as instructed.
Most of these new Fathers undergo a period of collapse after the ceremony; they are never the same again.

This ritual is the culmination of a lifetime of training in how to slaughter others. By this time, the new Jesuit Father has slaughtered literally thousands
over the course of their childhood, including assassinations and rituals participated in. The design of this type of bloodguiltiness is to create
a type of insanity and the desire to never remember, which feeds the dissociation. The individual will experience a huge amount of guilt,
and believe that God can never forgive them for the innocent lives they took.

Computer Training
The Vatican has trained its operatives since the early 1960s in the use of computers, and the equipment they have available is 50 years more advanced
than that used by the general public. They have classrooms within the Vatican that the children go to for training in the different areas
that they will be active in. This includes extensive training in all computer languages, and “hacker” training in order to get past firewalls and access information.

They are also trained in bookkeeping, accounting, and business systems, since the Vatican especially likes to keep itself informed about the financial
operations of the organizations it works with, and who work for it. The child will spend many hours on a computer, and will learn every method
of downloading and sending on information that is requested.

Torture Training
The Jesuits are considered the “best” (or, worst would be a better adjective) torturers in the world. They were the ones who conducted the Inquisition
(Torquemada was an infamous “interrogator”) and they refined the art of torture throughout the centuries. All Jesuits undergo training from infancy
on in how to torture and interrogate others.

The lower levels of all Jesuit monasteries, and the Vatican, contain rooms that are literal dungeons, with torture instruments that range from medieval
(such as racks, water wheels – a favorite of the Fathers), pincers, and iron maidens, as well as every variety of whip (including those with small stones
and razors attached), to more modern equipment.

The Jesuits are infamous for their ability to keep individuals they wish to make examples of alive for weeks while undergoing torture. The toddler is forced to
learn to do all of these things, and others. If they hesitate or refuse, the toddler is tortured in the same way they were asked to torture another,
until under great pain, they finally agree. The victims they learn on are often homeless adults at first, or traitors; the child is taught that these tortures
are what happen to those who betray the Order, or try to leave it.

A favorite form of torture at the monasteries is actual crucifixions; the “traitors” are nailed to crosses, and slowly suffocate and dehydrate
over a period of three to four days. The Jesuit classes are marched by at intervals to watch the result; the individuals always lose their bodily control
during the first day, and their minds by the second. It is a terrible sight to see the incoherent screams and begging for mercy by the last day or two,
and it makes an unforgettable impression on the young Jesuits in training.


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Q’Ballah Programming

Mengele always installed the Q’Ballah in those he worked with, and he installed it into Jesuit systems as well. Althea, or the “Tree of Life” is the basis,
with the three cords (white, black, grey) roots demonically entwined and going back to the systems described above. There is a primary death trauma
for each of the core controllers for each of these roots.

An important part of q’ballah (black Kabbalah) programming is the creation of demonic portals. These are installed at points known as the sephiroth in the body.
There will be death rituals, and demonic entities attached to each of these points, which become a portal or opening for demonic travel and communication.
Tiferet represents the core, sits above the umblicus, and is the portal for satan himself. This is the first, or prime trauma, and this ritual involves
the newborn or fetal umblicus being burned with a hot needle as the infant is put to death, then resuscitated.

Each portal (sephiroth) is installed via death trauma, and will have a portal guardian who is an ascended master from the grey (celestial)system
sitting above it, who is both human and demonic. The guardians will have been heavily programmed to misrepresent their true names, due to the need for
cover programming. These guardians supposedly “protect” the body and systems from “intrusion” by beings in the dimensions; but in reality, they are open doors
to the demonic and must be closed through spiritual warfare (giving up of the demons) and by these ascended guardians accepting Yeshua and giving up their former beliefs in demonic “protection.”

Helping the Survivor
The survivor will often initially be terrified at the thought of closing these portals when this comes up in therapy. This is because of extensive programming
to believe that closing the portals will result in “death”, “insanity” or cruel punishment by internal or external masters. They will literally believe
that their safety and survival depends upon keeping these portals open, and will question how to survive closing them.

There may be parts instructed to take the other parts into the dimensions and punish parts that try to close their portals, or break this programming.
The survivor may even re-experience the death traumas and agony involved in the original creation of the portals. Once the portals are closed,
the survivor will be amazed at the relief, and the fact that they are indeed alive and sane. The therapist will need to help counteract the programming
with truth, and develop enough trust with the survivor that they are willing to give up this method of demonic interaction.

Once the portals are closed, the survivor may experience significant warfare in retaliation for doing so. This is a time for prayer and spending time
with the Lord, and calling on Yeshua for protection.

The Q’Ballah will have an extensive internal reality attached to it, including magic numbers in rooms, and the white, black or silver cords
from it running throughout the systems, from top to bottom, including within the rooms that the various controllers stay in. These cords represent
the core traumas associated with the creation of each part of the “three rope” cord: infant death traumas and the beliefs associated with these traumas.

There will be an extensive internal reality for the systems and their controllers, with rooms, temples and other representations of the programming
that they underwent when a very young child.


Utter Darkness

The basis of obedience within the Jesuits is formed upon two primary forms of programming: the avoidance of pain (the pain of “descending” and thus going to “hell”),
or operant conditioning; and the formation of extremely deep attachments to primary figures. Their belief is that the combination of these two create “unbreakable”
programming, and the truth is that very few Jesuits every truly do leave the order. The attachment bonding described here, in earliest infancy,
makes it extremely difficult to do so.

When the infant is only a few weeks old, it is placed in a completely darkened room, with no noise or stimulus of any kind, and abandoned. This abandonment,
which lasts for several days, is extremely traumatizing to the infant. At first, the infant cries in a normal manner (distress), which then turns to anger
as the abandonment continues. Eventually, the infant becomes exhausted, sleeps for longer and longer intervals, and stops crying; instead, it whimpers as utter despair begins to hit.

The infant is psychologically unable to cope with impending death, as its body and psyche begins shutting down in the early stages of dying.
The infant comes to the realization that no one will ever come and rescue them, and they will die in complete and terrible darkness.

In complete despair, the infant is dying, when a soft light enters the room. A Jesuit Father comes in, carrying a warm bottle; behind him is The
(their name for the “benevolent” manifestation of satan). With kind words, the Father picks the infant up, soothes him/her and gives a life-sustaining bottle.
The infant is insanely grateful for this deliverance from “utter darkness” (the deepest level of “Jesuit hell” for the worst deeds, such as treachery
and betrayal of the order). As the baby takes the bottle and is comforted, they bond completely to the Father, and to the being (Theo) who is superimposed upon
the Father. The Father begins programming that they “owe their life” to him, that he “rescued them from utter darkness” for a “special purpose”,
that the infant is to “live and not die.” Trauma bonding at a deep level occurs, and the Father appears like a god to the infant, and in fact,
will hold the “theo” (God) position inside.

This bond will be built upon and layered upon over and over as the years go on. The infant will NOT be allowed to truly attach to ANYONE ELSE
for the rest of their life. All other caretakers and friends in the early years will either be killed or appear to be killed, or child must agree to it,
to prevent the Father being killed (in terrible setups where the infant must choose which lives and which “dies”), or friends terribly betray
the infant/toddler/child to teach them that there is only one who can be trusted: the Father the infant formed a primary bond to, and the spirit “Theo.”
This is the core level of Jesuit bonding, and is by far the most difficult programming to break.

The Father-mentee relationship is the deepest of all, as the Jesuit Father mentors others and molds them into his image. He will hold a “theo” or god place
within the system, and this bond will be the hardest to break, since it represents the deepest attachment of the core to a human being.

The purpose of this mentoring is to draw the infant into a relationship with “Theo” (satan’s benevolent personification) from its first days on earth.
The Father will bond the infant to himself, and in doing so, bond the infant to the spiritual theo as well.

The survivor of Jesuit programming has extremely disorganized attachment due to the fact that they have attached to satan himself (Theo) as well as
their primary Father (referred to as “Father Theo”). There is a no less reliable being in creation to attach to, yet this was the infant’s only choice
during early childhood if they were to survive. If given another option, the infant would have rejected bonding to satan.

The early trauma is so severe, that it can take months or even years to grieve for the manipulation and “detach” from these primary figures.
It takes intense prayer, and a deep desire by the survivor, to break free of this programming that pivots upon the Jesuit’s demonic use of infant attachment.
The only real answer is for the survivor to choose to renounce the bonds to satan and the primary Jesuit Father, and to bond with Yeshua. During the interval,
they will also need to bond at least temporarily with a caring figure who can represent the love of God to their systems, since these infants have never experienced this.

The older parts, once they become Christians, can help “reparent” the infants, helping them to understand that the Christian God truly does love them,
and can keep them safe. Realizing at a deep level that Yeshua paid the full price for sins on the cross, and that their systems will not “descend” into hell
and utter darkness, and realizing that the internal representations are based upon setups and manipulation, can help break the hold of this early attachment.


Loyalty Programming

Loyalty was considered one of the greatest imperatives of the Order, and extensive time and thought was put into the programming for loyalty.
Men and women dressed in shabby clothes would come into the nurseries where the babies were, shouting “we are traitors and are here to get you.”
They would hit, rape and abuse us; all the babies would be screaming, until one of the Fathers would come in and “rescue” us from these terrible “traitors”.
Numerous setups of this type were done, until the mere mention of the word ‘traitor’ would make our infant hackles rise.


Anti-Christian

A man dressed as “Jesus” would also walk into the infant nursery at times, abusing the infants and causing intense dislike and pain.
Again, the infants were “rescued” by one of the Fathers, who “chased” him away.

The Jesuit Fathers create innumerable setups to ensure that the young child will learn to hate and fear the real Jesus of Christianity.
These setups can include the following:

- The child runs away when very young, because the gates to the monastery are “miraculously” left open. Eager to escape their torture and abuse,
they run down the road. There is a house to the right, and in front is a kindly, smiling figure in a white robe who introduces himself as “Jesus”.
He invites the child in for a meal and “safety” from the “bad Fathers”. The child accepts the invitation and once inside the house, is locked in
and terribly sexually abused and tortured for several days. The child finally “finds” an opportunity to escape and is found by a Father as they run back
to the monastery, which is better than what they experienced in the “Mansion with many rooms” that the false “Jesus” lives in.

- When a bit older, the child may be taken to a monastery near the coast of Ireland, where there are numerous caves. While there, they meet a shepherd
in a white robe with a flock of sheep; the shepherd has a staff, and introduces himself to the child as Jesus. Others with him are the disciples.
“Jesus” ties the child to himself with a rope, and takes the child into different caves, where sexual abuse occurs. The false Jesus and disciples
also practice bestiality, torture the child, hit the child with the shepherd’s staff, all the while reciting scriptures about the “Good shepherd and His sheep,”
“Let the little children come unto me” (when sexual abuse occurs), “My sheep hear my voice,” (the child is beaten), and other shepherd scriptures,
from the “rod and staff comfort me”, to “entering the gate”.

- Theta, or dark spiritual parts, are taught that “Jesus smells.” At some point, the child is taken to the shore of the ocean, where there is a boat
filled with very rotten fish. A false “Jesus” who smells like the fish, and his “disciples” grab the child and take them retching out onto the water
in the boat, declaring that they are “fishers of men” and will make the child one as well.

- Numerous “Witch Trials” are set up starting during the toddler years, when spiritual parts are brought before a jury of “Christians”
who condemn them for witchcraft, and consign them to death by burning at the stake. A Jesuit Father “rescues” the young witch or mage from “death”
and the part is left with a deep hatred for Christians.

Helping the Survivor
Early in therapy, the survivor will appear to have no problem with prayer, talking to the Lord, and quickly hearing His voice; they may even appear
to have strong prophetic gifts since these were heavily utilized by the cult (in divination and oracle roles). But as they begin to realize
and undo the punisher and anti-Christian programming, they will begin to understand the amount of deception and listening to false spirits that they did,
all the while believing they were praying to the Lord.

This can cause deep spiritual anguish, and the survivor may even fear praying for a period, seeking to address their prayers only to the “correct” deity
and fearing they are instead talking to the “wrong one.” They may address this problem by using a pre-defined prayer, or a different name than
they have for “God” and “Jesus” internally.

Eventually, as they recover the memories and undo the programming, they will understand that the LORD hears their heart’s cry to address only Him.
They may for a period be less able to “hear” from Him than formerly, since they are choosing to give up all demonic and false feeds into their mind,
and to only hear from the LORD. This is where discipleship by a mature Christian can help enormously. The more experienced Christian can help the survivor
learn to discern what is truly the Lord’s voice, and what is programming or demonic.

This is why it is so important for the survivor to be well-grounded in scripture, and to be willing to search the scriptures for the truth,
as well as discuss what falsehoods they were taught. Internal parts may come out initially very hostile towards God or Jesus, but this is simply because
their last experience with who they believe they are was very traumatic, or they felt abandoned by God. Part of healing is working through the setups,
and understanding that the God of the Bible is not at all like the actors and false representations the survivor was shown.

The survivor’s back parts will all have undergone extensive setups and “proofs” that God is “weaker” than Satan, so asking them initially to put their
full trust in the LORD may seem foolish (or suicidal) to them. Gradually, with trust and the survivor watching the authority of true Christianity
(and often testing it spiritually themselves through warfare), these parts will come to acknowledge that the LORD truly is the one true God,
and will be willing to give up their demonic attachments and “helpers” (which are actually demonic parasites).


Anti-Semitic

The Vatican hates the Jewish race, and trains its agents to hate it as well. The earliest anti-semitic training includes the young toddler being beaten
or raped by “Jews” (these are setups to create a deep unconscious hatred). Later, prisoner and guard scenarios, and re-enactment of nazi death camps
are done. Throughout these portrayals, being a guard is “good” and comes with privileges and lack of abuse (but the guards must be abusers),
while being a prisoner, or “Jew” is considered “bad” and the signal to abuse the prisoner ferociously. Those who show mercy in any form are tortured themselves,
and forced to play the role of Jew.


Anti-Israeli Intelligence

The Vatican also plays a very active role in anti-Israeli intelligence, which will be discussed later. During infancy, a cover identity for these agents
must be created, and they are placed for a period of time in a kibbutz, as an “orphan.” The orphan will always have a distant family member
who at some point takes responsibility for the child (such as an aunt). But there will be a record of the child being placed in the kibbutz for official purposes.

The child’s “aunt” or “relative” will be a programmer who helps the child learn Israeli culture and to assimilate. They will travel frequently
out of the country during the child’s early years, due to the relative’s role as a “consultant” on business travels. In reality, the child will be taken
back to the monastery between these visits to Israel which are for the sole purpose of creating their later cover identity as a Sabra.


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MI6 Training

Once the host presentations are in place, the child (by age 3 ½) will undergo training at MI6. MI6 has a special area (known as “Colonel Green’s House”
after Colonel Green, the founder of MI6) where young children undergo specialized assassin and military training. Again, the child goes there
with their class, and is assigned a number. Instead of being called by name, they will be called “42” or a similar number during training and learn to respond to this.

MI6 reserves the Green House for the Jesuits at specific times, and the trainers during this time are all Jesuit trainers that work for MI6. The child
will perfect previous skills in using a gun; their delta computer system will be put into place, and their ability to classify intelligence,
and store it based upon its classification will be perfected during this time. The ability to use a photographic visual and auditory memory,
and download to handlers information obtained while on a mission, is also perfected.

They will perfect basic skills of all operatives, such as following a target, dropping a tail, and blending in inconsicuously in a group.
The terrible punishments used at MI6 (such as the room with walls that move inwards, or the multi-faceted crystal ball in a room with mirrors
used when the child is drugged, or the specialized computer system that is used for delta installation) are all used on the child. By the time the child
has completed the 3-month training course (which is updated as they grow older), they will have a firm base in military special operations.
By age 12, the child will have developed enough skillsets that they will be classified as a military weapon.


Brain Wave Programming

The Jesuits utilize the fact that when a person’s brain waves are in theta state, they are the most open to the spiritual realm.

The infant is taught to stay in theta state by attaching electrodes to their head that pick up brain waves and show them on a monitor.
When the infant personality that is being trained is in theta state, the infant is heavily praised. If the personality “bounces” out of theta state,
as is normal, the infant is heavily shocked. Eventually, the personalities created learn to stay permanently in theta state (this same training method
is also used for the personalities in other brain wave states, to teach them to stay in the desired brain wave state).

Gamma is the highest brain wave state, and will occur when a person is in a highly excited or nervous state. This is where sabotage scripts will
later be programmed in, since the high anxiety in this state will trigger calling the police, accuse the helper of kidnapping,
or other self-sabotage, if someone tries to help the survivor.

Beta state is a normal alert state, and this is where military systems and those that need a normal alert state will be created.

Alpha is more relaxed, and accessing systems and presentations will be created in this state.

Delta is the deepest brain state, and will hold semi-unconscious and even unconscious beliefs.


Theta Training

When a person’s brain waves are in theta state, they are the most open to the spiritual realm. This is why much of their spiritual training is conducted when the individual is in theta state.

Once they can stay in theta state, the early spiritual training begins. The thetas are kept in a blackened room, and the people who interact
with them appear shadowy. Actors dressed as demons will come into the room, and “chain” the infant to them. The actors demonstrate to the infant how
demons act, growling, snarling and torturing them in various ways. At the same time, the infant is told that THEY are the demon. This is how demonic
punishers and controllers are created in the first weeks of life.

The Jesuits understand that an infant must be shown an external reality in order to internalize it.

The theta state parts in the infants are left in darkened cribs and are given objects such as decapitated heads to play with;
or demonic toys such as fetishes. The infant’s fingers are placed around the neck of a kitten, and when they squeeze, as babies will, they are highly praised.
The infant has no idea of what they are doing at this stage, but the foundation for later assassination training is being put in place.

Demons come into the room, and talk and play with the infant’s theta parts. This is their first bonding, with these creatures that appear horrific.

Gradually, the infant is taught to call on the demonic for theta capabilities. The Jesuit Father will throw a ball at the infant to hit it,
and encourage the baby to spiritually throw the ball back at them (they are too young to have the physical coordination to do so, but can easily do this demonically).
Throwing a ball demonically is demonstrated, and the baby is hit again and again, until in anger and frustration, they are able to loft the ball back
at the person hitting them. This is heavily praised, since the infant is using spiritual power to accomplish what it cannot physically, and using
its hurt and rage at being abused and turning it to hurt another back. This is the early foundation for later theta capabilities.


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Theta Controller Training

As the child reaches late preschool and early school age, they will undergo Galileo training (training in remote viewing, mind reading and thought influencing),
in order to provide the Jesuits with access to buildings and conversations they would otherwise be unable to reach. During a mission, a child will be asked,
for example, to go into an office building, and “read” classified or private documents during the night hours and then share what they have read with their handlers.

The child will also have the ability to introject themselves and images or thoughts into other people’s dream states. In fact, part of theta
assassin training is learning to have the subject dream of their own death. The head theta controller (such as Nemesis) will oversee the others,
including Phobos (fear); Thantos (death) and Chaos (insanity). Theta training is aimed at teaching the child to induce each of these states in others using demonic powers developed.


Theta Assassin Training

Jesuits very frequently induce death in those that cross them. If a child is sent on a mission, they will have sexual relations with the “mark.”
At a later time (often days later), the child will be sent back spiritually with a mentor, to cause their death while sleeping. This will often begin
with a terrifying dream of the individual’s death, and many have literally died of fright due to these terrible dreams.

When the Black Pope is “retired” he is actually surrounded by a group of Jesuits, trained in this way, who kill him using theta powers.
The new Black Pope always participates in this. The Black Pope in Rome has a theta guard composed of Jesuits who have completed their theta training
(these guards can range in age from 12 years old to 32). The three guards sit in front of his office, as a warning to any intruders.
They and other theta guards stationed throughout the Vatican give immediate notice if an outsider without authorization has entered the Vatican.
This includes occultic practitioners who “fly” past the Vatican; these individuals are hunted down in the spirit by the theta guards, and first warned,
and later even killed, for trespassing. In the occultic realm, the Vatican is considered a true “no fly” zone for those who travel spiritually.

The Swiss Guard is composed of young Jesuits who have completed their military and theta training, and act as an additional layer of protection.

The newer generations of thetas have highly developed “kill” training in the spiritual realm developed from the first weeks of life in the womb on,
and are often mentored by groups of very skilled theta trainers to prevent the children from turning on the trainers and killing them.
These newer thetas have poorly developed presentations, and must often live very protected lives away from the public eye.


Delta Computer Training

Delta training is extensive enough to give it special mention. During delta training, the child will be hooked up to a computer, which it will be taught
to emulate while in delta state. The computer speaks with a synthetic, very robotic voice, and the child will do the same. The delta training
will encompass high and low delta states, and the child will be taught to classify all cognitive thoughts and experiences according to security levels.
Low security levels can be retained as conscious thought; any information classified as mid to high security will be “access denied” to conscious
presentation thought, and stored within the deeper delta states of the brain.

The delta computer system will have a ground zero state, with delta controllers and introjected trainers “manning” the computer systems.
At ground zero, primary traumas and death state programming are installed, to prevent dismantling of the computer system and to keep the child invested
in protecting high-security information.


Presentation Programming

Because the Jesuits are international, they create presentations to be hosted in various presentations in the infants. Nine presentations were created
for the infants in the group I was in: a presentation for America, another for the UK, another for France, another for Germany, one for Italy,
one for Japan (where the Jesuits have a large interest and alliances with the clans that operate there), one for Russia, one for Amsterdam and one for Israel.

The programming labs had rooms set up, where members of the future host families would meet with and interact with me. I met my parents and siblings
from each of the families I would have in these various nations, and they took family photos with me, talked with me in the host country language,
and worked on my amnesia cues (to prevent bleedthrough, or having memories or speaking in the “wrong” language).

In one country (France), to my joy I was to be hosted with my identical twin, E. We both loved our times together during the presentation programming,
where we were taught how to be part of a “normal” family and interact normally, to create our covers within these countries and cover the fact that
we were actually raised in a cult facility.

The closest friends and family members in each of the host countries were, of course, cult members, since for the first three years, I spent almost all
of my time in a cult facility and would not be actually spending time in the host countries until I was three years old.

Just before I went to host in the countries, each time, an important event occurred. I would be asked to “remember” living in the cult facility,
would say something about it to the host parents. That night, a baby sibling (considered expendable, but allowed to bond with me over the past several months)
would be killed in front of me because I “remembered”. This trauma was used to seal the amnesia between presentations. The cult host (the real “host”
in an international system) also made agreements to never allow memories of the “real” (cult) life rise to awareness in the presentations.
The Fathers would have me go into a room where a Jesuit Father was present, along with the host family, and later ask me if I remembered anything unusual.
If I remembered the Father, who I loved greatly, the Father was brought into the room and tortured in front of me, to my screams and distress,
because I had “remembered” the cult life. I was supposed to completely forget seeing a father when in my presentation, to completely “blank out”
any memory of this other life.

In one setup, I would go into a room where cult objects were placed. My presentation was switched out. Later, I was asked what I had seen in the room.
One time, at age two, I remembered and reported seeing a dead body and a chalice, and a Father in the room. The Father then came into the room,
held a gun to my head, and said I would have to be killed, since my remembering would endanger the Order. I vowed to always forget. He said I must,
or he would be forced to kill me, as sad as that would be. The next time the setup was done, I forgot, and lived. I did know children who actually were shot,
because they kept remembering in spite of their trying hard to obey. The gun was not an idle threat; I had one brother shot this way, and never forgot this.


Secrecy/Amnesia Training

Some of the most important training the preschooler undergoes is secrecy training. The child has bonded heavily to and wants to protect the Jesuit fathers,
and so they are told:
“If you betray us, we could be killed. The only way to not betray us is to not remember.”
The child willingly agrees to amnesia, in order to protect the people they love most.

In other secrecy setups, a child will complete a setup “mission” and later is asked if they remembered what happened. If the child answers “Yes”
a gun is placed to their head, and they are told that if they remember, the Father must kill them. They are asked again if they remember (presenters are asked);
until the child is either completely amnesic, or is killed (the Jesuits do not allow children who have any memory traces to live; the gun threat is very real).

Another setup is “remember the flowers“: the child is taken to a garden at the monastery where he/she has spent times chatting with their favorite Father
in the past. There is a water pool in the middle of the garden, and during this setup, it is filled with corpses of children the same age as the young child
(ages 2 or 3). The Father cuts a flower, gives it to the child and tells the child to “remember the flowers” (i.e. the dead children who remembered and told others).


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Two kinds of amnesia

When a survivor does not remember a particular event or experience, there are two basic possibilities. One is that the part of that person,
who participated in that event or experience, vowed to forget what transpired. The other possibility is that a different part of that person participated
in that event or that experience, and there are “barriers” between the different parts that prevent communication, mutual awareness, or permits awareness
in only one direction (e.g.: part A always know what part B does, but part B does not even realize that part A exists).

Amnesia due to agreements to forget what happened
In the first case, where the parts of the survivor who participated in the event or experience vowed to forget it, it is important to explore why
that part of the survivor agreed to forget. Was it to protect a loved one? (E.g.: The person was told “If you remember, your mother will die.”
Was it to protect that part’s own sanity or sense of goodness? (E.g.: The person was told, “If you remember, you will go crazy,” or, “If you forget,
God will also forget your sin.”) Was it to display loyalty? (E.g.: The person was told, “If you forget, that protects the group because you will then
never divulge our secrets”).

This type of amnesia is very common for the “day time” or “normal” parts of the person who have no memory of any cult activity. Often, these parts
make up the “person” who first comes to therapy and believes that it is the other parts who have participated in cult activity and are programmed.
In fact, the “day time” or “normal” parts of a survivor are also programmed and also participate in cult activity – but they are under vows to forget
and be completely amnesic.

These reasons will need to be addressed with truth, support and love. For instance, some important truths to share with parts to challenge
their agreement to forget can be “remembering does not mean you are betraying the group”, “remembering will not drive you crazy”,
“remembering does not mean that you are evil”, “when you were little and you remembered then people died and there was a big earthquake – that was a set up
in a programming studio – that does not really happen in real life”. Prayer is critical – ask God what it is that the survivor needs to see
about being afraid to remember. Often, it is difficult for the survivor (or the therapist!) to know precisely what truth that the traumatized parts
need to hear the most – but God knows exactly what the survivor needs.

Amnesia due to different parts participating in the event or experience
The second type of amnesia is when a different part of the person participated in that event or that experience, and there are “barriers” between
the different parts that prevent communication, mutual awareness, or permits awareness in only one direction (e.g.: part A always know what part B does,
but part B does not even realize that part A exists). For instance, if an assassin part has done a hit the night before, typically the “normal”/ “daytime”
part of the person who is a kindergarten teacher will have absolutely no idea what happened, due to the barriers between these two different parts.
She might feel a little tired from having less sleep than usual, maybe even slightly depressed (or not at all), but she will not have any memory of the event.

In this type of amnesia, the “barriers” are installed very early in the person’s childhood and are reinforced throughout the person’s lifetime.
The “barrier” is most fundamentally a refusal between parts to communicate. Barriers are installed in a few basic ways:

“Cult parts” are put through various set-ups to make them refuse to let the “normal/daytime” parts know what they do.
E.g.: When a child the very young, the two different sets of parts are allowed to be “out” in the body at the same time. The emotions of the day time parts
prevent the cult parts from doing their duties. The day time parts are cued back in and only the cult parts get punished by the programmer.
The cult parts are then told that they should never let the day parts know what is going on or the cult parts would become “weak” and incompetent.

“Day / normal” parts are taught to fear knowing anything that the cult parts do.
E.g.: When the child is very young, the cult parts are cued out then told to kill. The “day /normal” parts are then cued out and are horrified
by the murder. The programmer then tells the child they can “make it all go away” by building a wall between them and the “bad parts” inside.
The programmer then helps the child to build a wall in front of corpse and tells the child that that takes all the badness away.

Both “cult parts” and “day/normal parts” are taught to believe that being in the body at the same time and sharing information will lead to great pain and destruction.
E.g. When the child is very young, the programmers cue both set of parts out, then tortures then child or a loved one in front of the child.
The torture stops when one set of parts go back in deeper. The programmer than warns the child that the two sets of parts must never be out at the same time or share information.

Some parts are programmed to be memory “buffers” i.e. they stand between different groups of parts to block any communication or sharing of memories.
E.g.: When the child is very young, she or he is placed in a large room. On one side of the room are people engaged in “normal” activities.
In the other side of the room, people are engaged in “cult activities”. If people from one of the room engage with the other side, both are “killed”
(the child is typically too young to recognize the staged deaths). The child tries to stop the communication and is praised when she does so.
The programmer tells these parts of the child that their job is to prevent disaster by preventing different sets of people from communicating.


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Buffers

In these sophisticated systems, buffers will be created between the front and back with one sole purpose: to hide the extent of the programming,
by “buffering” the feelings between front and back, and maintaining emotional and memory distance between the two. The buffers will always be very void
of feeling, and extremely traumatized, since they “hide the back” and help make the programming “undetectable” to the world, and the survivor.


Prenatal Programming

Pre-birth and the first three years are the years when the most intensive training is done, and for these groups, it is literally a “full-time” job.
During the first three years of my life, I lived fulltime in a cult facility in a European country, before I ever met my host families in various countries.
This facility was under the direction of a well-known programmer. This is how my life started:

I was conceived in a petri dish in the late 1950’s at a genetics laboratory in Switzerland. By the time of my birth, I was considered “generation 3”,
or the third generation of genetic enhancements. The first two generations were prototypes for physical beauty. By G3, the gene for intelligence
had been discovered, as well as for improved muscle strength and healing capability. Later generations improved upon these foundations as genes
for even greater intelligence, theta skills and other abilities were developed.

On the third day of life, I was implanted in the woman who was my birth mother, but she was not my genetic mother (who was a ranking member of the group
I was raised in; the well-known programmer was my genetic father). She, along with other birth mothers, were taken to a special facility in Europe
where the prenatal programming would begin, since the experiments on pregnant women conducted by Mengele had proven that programming begun in the womb
lasts longer and is more difficult to break than programming that occurs after birth, when the infant has the opportunity to interact with the outside world.

For the first two weeks, my birth mother was treated extremely well, praised, petted and told what a “special” baby she was carrying.
Beaming programmers and their trainees brought her choice foods, and told her what a special person she was, to be part of carrying a baby that
would be part of a “new breed” of individuals. This kindness was unfortunately the priming for the later setups and betrayals that would occur,
with the purpose of creating rage against the human race in her unborn child.

After two weeks, the torture began. The birth mother was told to do something repugnant to her (e.g., lick up urine and feces off the floor,
or a similar act), and as she hesitated, the punishment was quick and brutal: agonizing, squeezing pain to her limbs and partial suffocation,
as she was told “You must always obey, immediately.” A tone was also played with this injunction. The rationale for this treatment?
A developing embryo and fetus automatically synchronizes brain waves with the mother, and their young spirit feels what the mother’s spirit does.
The extreme distress is imprinted on the unborn child as well as the mother.

At this point, a reader will wonder: but the baby doesn’t have a conscious mind yet. Why do this before brainwaves and consciousness develop?
The rationale the programmers use is that the unborn embryo’s spirit is present, and the spirit will never forget these events, which lay the foundation for
later programming.

How does the birth mother not abort her unborn child with these traumas? The programmers will administer specific drugs to prevent this occurrence,
although contractions may begin in some cases.

I know these things happened, not only because of memories my parts have shared, but also because when I was older, and ran the facility,
I and other trainers did these same things to birth mothers. The things we did to these women and their unborn children are among the things
I most regret doing in my past.

As the weeks go on, the torture and programming sessions become more severe, along with the rewards (operant conditioning techniques).
Both mother and child are subjected to electric shocks, the instillation of drugs that induce severe, agonizing pain
(as part of the “seal of mortality” programming, during which the fetus is told that this pain is their “ascended” self feeling the pain that “mortals” feel;
this is part of the installation of a fear of mortality in the “higher” or “ascended” parts within the system). The fetus is then told that
the birth mother can be “saved” from the pain if the fetus is willing to “rescue” her by taking in a demon. If the fetus complies, the stimulus
for pain is stopped, or an antagonist drug given to stop the effects of the pain-inducing drug, and an injection of a bliss-producing drug is given,
while both mother and fetus are told that this is the “joy of ascension”, etc.

The real goal is to teach the fetus to rescue the birth mother; this will be the foundation of later rescue programming that will chain them to the group
(e.g. the need to rescue those they love from torture or death if their programming breaks).

The punishments for disobedience become more severe: the end of a finger is cut off from the fetus, who experiences agonizing pain
(this small digit will grow back if done early enough in development, but the trauma remains in the subconscious throughout the lifetime),
as a punishment for “disobedience”. Digits are cut off of the birth mother as well, and she is raped and traumatized by a pretend “Jesus” to teach
the fetus to hate Christianity and all it represents.

All the foundation templates for later programming, and the first splits, were created during the months before birth. This includes
the installation of an inside “Satan” who believes they are completely “evil”, the inside “god” (whose voice sounds like the outside main programmer),
an inside “He who is to come” (antichrist; this has changed to “he who has come” in recent years), and top controllers and core guardians.
These are created to protect the developing core from the reality of the complete helplessness and reality of a world where horrendous abuse – including rape
with special instruments – occurs in the place that should be safe and protected for the developing child.

Fetuses like warmth, dark and security; but bright lights are shone into the womb as punishments. A voice accompanied by a bright light is placed outside
the womb, and the voice proclaims that they are “god” and that in order for the birth mother and fetus to survive, this voice must always be obeyed.

By the end of the seventh month, the birth mother’s limbs have all been traumatically amputated, and she is forced to eat out of a dish like a dog.
Soon after this, the ultimate abandonment occurs: the birth mother loses her mind completely, and the link to the one the fetus loves most is gone.
The fetus is in complete despair, and the she hears a voice, kind, loving and reassuring her that while her “mother” abandoned her, this person
loves her and will always be “there” for her.

I was that fetus, and I reached out to that voice as if it was a life raft. This was my primary trainer, aware of Mengele’s teachings, and the one
I loved most as a child; I bonded completely to him at that moment, because my life depended on it (fetuses that do not accept or receive this bonding
will die in the womb in a short period of time; this is another of the terrible experiments that Mengele did on pregnant women and fetuses that
the public has no knowledge of).

This voice told me they loved me, and were waiting eagerly to see me when I was born. This gave me a reason to continue living, in the midst
of a world filled with pain, despair and darkness.

This was life before birth in a programming facility in Europe. Soon, I would be born, and the abuse
(“training” was the name given to it) would continue.

These methods are still employed today, in training facilities around the world. The goal is to create a programmed individual during
their most vulnerable time: before birth. The deepest delusions of “god”, “powerful demons”, supernatural creatures, ascended beings, celestial paradise,
torturous hell are best installed during a time when an individual has had no interaction with the outside world to dilute the delusions with real-life experiences.
These delusions have no resemblance to the truth found in the Christian Bible, and are installed as part of the core belief system
for individuals born to international occultic groups that follow these precepts.


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Birth Trauma

Upon birth, an infant that is to be used by the group undergoes a very specific trauma. As soon as the infant is born, a group member takes the infant
and begins to smother it to death. The infant is asked spiritually, “Do you want to live?” Behind the Father is satan, and the infant is aware
within their spirit that if they answer, “Yes” that satan will enter them. This being is hideous and terrifying, and it takes a very strong will
to live to respond affirmatively. If the infant responds “No” they are smothered to death. If yes, they are allowed to breathe,
and with their first cries in the physical world, satan attaches to the core.


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At the moment I was born, and took my first breath, my birth mother was killed by being pulled apart as I came out of the birth canal.
This trauma was designed to create a guilt that the programmers would build upon the rest of my life:
the belief that by living, I “killed” my birth mother. The guilt would be used to drive me to perform ceaselessly over the years in an unconscious attempt to justify being alive.

A ritual was done immediately, in which one of the people I had bonded with in the womb (my primary trainer – a father I loved) began to suffocate me,
asking me if I would accept a demon present behind him; if I did, he would let me live. I agreed, and was allowed to breathe.

I was given to a woman to nurse, one of several nannies at the cult facility I was raised in who would nurse me, rock me, and sing me songs
about the group I was in, the heroes in the group who performed great deeds, and songs of praise to Satan.

My genetic mother and father were also present, and participated in a ritual that dedicated me to Satan.

Afterwards, I was taken to the newborn nursery where other infants in my group (we were raised in groups of 12) were in their cribs. Each infant
in a group was born within a day or two of each other. My birth date was January 5, an important date to the group I was born to: Epiphany.
I was considered one of the “gifts of the magi” to the group, and many other infants were born on this date as well.


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Early Splitting

The first weeks of life for an infant born to the Jesuits are very busy and extremely painful. This is when the first splits are split again,
and templates for systems are created and organized. Spiritual programming is also conducted in a more methodical method.

The first organization and traumas occur with “white room” and “black room” training. The infant undergoes traumas which include:
being quickly lowered while the head is supported (to make the infant feel as if they are falling and initiate the startle reflex);
peeling of skin with sharp knives from the sole of the feet, the backs of the legs, the backs of the arms, and the back (infants heal very quickly,
with minimal scarring, since only the very top layer of skin is peeled off); digital rape; electroshock; near-drowning in a tub of water; partial suffocation;
burning with fire on digits and the soles of the feet.
These are called “prime traumas” and become the foundational physical traumas for the systems being created.

Along with the physical trauma is severe spiritual trauma. Rituals are conducted, and demons are attached to the splits being created, to cause the splits
to remain apart (the brain will normally try to rapidly re-attach splits during infancy unless demonic barriers are put in place). The impartation
is often done through the laying on of hands of the Father or programmer on the infant’s head and/or belly.

The initial, primary programming, occurs either in a white room, where the programmers, walls, clothing and lights are all white (this would occur
for the presentation or cover programming), or in an all-black room where the only light comes from a black, or ultraviolet, light, if any.
This is where theta (spiritual) programming and the programming of the true deeper (back) layers occurs.

One reason that the initial theta, or spiritual, programming occurs in an all-black room is not only for mental organization, but to also decrease
the amount of interaction with the physical world via sight and the senses that will occur within these parts being created. Many of these parts
are created literally in darkness, and have never seen daylight throughout their lives until healing occurs.

These traumas fuel the deep amnesia that is always present in Jesuit systems: there are always huge barriers placed between the presentations (“hosts”),
the cover programming, the Vatican programming, and the New World Order programming.

White Room Programming
In the white room, the other controllers are being created as well. Men and women dressed as members of
- the Greek Pantheon (for the white/Illuminati or Beast-Loyal systems)
- the Roman Pantheon (for the Black, or Vatican/Satan-Loyal systems)
- the Ancient Pantheon (for the grey, or New World Order/Antichrist-Loyal systems)
visit the infant, introduce themselves, explain who they are, and create a spiritual tie to these parts.
They literally take cords (white, black, and grey) and tie themselves physically to the infant for hours; they also force the infant to undergo rituals
dedicating these parts to the demons. The infant also watches videos, virtual reality programs, and holograms in which these ‘gods and goddesses’
of the Pantheons talk to them, and explain that they also are a god or goddess.

This basic programming all takes place in the first three months of life, and is continued for years afterwards.


Toddler Training

By the time an infant is a year old, they will have several hundred personalities in place, which have already undergone extensive foundational mind control.

The controllers for the white spiritual systems will be in place, since the infant will have internalized these through virtual reality, holograms,
and dramatic enactments of the “deities” by actors. The white spiritual systems include:
• Egyptian deities
• Babylonian deities
• Ancient (pre-Babylonian) deities
• Druidic deities
These are headed up by the white, or Greek, Pantheon of twelve deities.
Each system will have specific traumas attached to it. For instance, Bel, the head of the Babylonian system, will undergo a ritual where he is pierced
through with tiny golden needles throughout his body (Babylonian sun ritual). Astarte will have sexual rituals, and Ashtoth will have death rituals associated with him.

The black (Vatican) spiritual systems are also being organized and trained from 12 to 14 months after birth. These include the theta assassin systems headed by:
• Nemesis, who controls
• Phobos (theta fear and dream attacks);
• Thantos (theta death) and
• Chaos (theta insanity programming).
Extensive training is undergone, where the young child learns to control and read thoughts (Galileo training), and to attack others using the theta skills they are developing.

The “goddess of Death” and other demonic spirits will have temples and altars dedicated to them, where regular internal sacrifices are conducted. These re-enactments represent the external realities the toddler experienced.


Controller Programming

The Jesuits use extensive setups to teach the internal controllers to do their jobs during this second year of life. Typical ones involve tying several
young children with ropes (normally, six) to the waist of the toddler. She is told to “mind the children” and make them obey her. The setup will
consist of having candy, or beautiful objects such as glass balls, in the middle of a room. The toddler is told that the children tied to her must NOT
touch the objects in the middle of the room, or they and she will be punished.

The problem is that it is very difficult for a very young child to control others. The six children tied to her waist will try to yank her around,
and grab at the objects or treats. Finally, in spite of her best efforts, she will tire, and one of the children will reach the table and grab a treat.

The child is instantly killed by a Jesuit Father waiting in the wings. The two-year old must now make the other, now quite obedient, children obey her,
while dragging around the body of the dead child, a reminder to this young controller of what happens when she fails in her job.

By the end of the setup, which can last for several days, all of the children tied to the now very traumatized controller will have died (the result of
disobedience and her failure to “mind the children” who in hunger will reach out and try to grab food and water, which are forbidden). The extremely traumatized
controller will be very committed to exacting complete obedience to those under her, to prevent their experiencing a similar fate.

All of the controllers inside (dozens) will undergo this and other training. This creates an extremely controlled system, with the internal controllers
believing that even slight disobedience will result in death or shattering. This belief is based upon numerous experiential setups when the child
was less then 3 years old, and it will take time to work through the terrible grief of being unable to “save” the children in the controller’s care,
and the rage that this type of manipulation creates in the survivor once they realize the truth.


Master-Slave Programming (ages 2 to 5)

There is a program to training obedience when a Jesuit child is very young. In this program, they are conditioned to be slaves, and obey their Masters,
the Jesuit Fathers (who are all ascended masters). They address them as “Master” and “My Lord” and their day consists of menial labor as the Fathers order.

Typical tasks might include scrubbing the stone floors of the monastery on hands and knees while the Fathers taunt the “slave”; they may even urinate
on the floor the child has just spent hours cleaning, and tell the child to clean it up again.

The acolyte will learn to cook; clean; do yard work, and will obey orders without question or thought, when asked to do tasks. This is considered
an important part of the early training in obedience.

The spiritual parts (thetas) are taught to respond spiritually to summons from the Fathers – instantly. Any hesitation is immediately and terribly punished
(such as being hung inside a dark well). The Fathers also have golden whistles that they wear around their necks; each child is assigned a set of notes,
and must respond physically and/or spiritually immediately when their notes are played.

The child is inside the walls of the monastery these first few years of life. By age 24 months, the child goes to classes, where they learn not only languages
(the Fathers speak Latin and Italian in daily life, and are all fluent in numerous other languages), but also oral history and the black arts as part of their mage training.

Internally, the survivor will have “masters” (controllers) and “slaves”; slave parts are taught to instantly obey masters.


Learning to “rescue” others (ages 3 to 6)

Learning to rescue loved ones is a critical skill and belief system taught, since so much programming involves rescue of not only the self,
but loved ones, from trauma, torture or death. These setups often involved doing something considered very “disobedient” (all children do from time to time;
the anger and rage from the constant abuse leaks out, and they defy orders or do things to act out their pain; this is expected and planned for).
Upon defying an order, I was ordered to be flogged with a whip that had small bits of bone attached (a flagellum, a favorite punishment of the Jesuits).
I realized that the amount of whipping ordered would likely cost my life (I had defied very badly). But then, the Father I loved most stepped in,
and said “I will take the punishment for you.” I was stunned. He was flogged until his skin was stripped and bleeding, looking at me the whole time
with a loving face. I cried and screamed, and this reinforced for me the belief that if you love someone, you will take their pain for them.

Over the years, I learned to do this myself, in setup after setup, until the ultimate ones in which the Father I loved most asked “I know it will hurt badly,
but are you willing to die for me?” I was four, and I said “Yes”. I allowed him to put me to death, then resurrect me with resuscitation equipment
and spiritual means. He then said “Now we are tied by death and life.” I literally trusted him with my life. The main thing is that out of my great love
(for this individual who manipulated me) I willingly agreed to the death and resuscitation. This is foundational for programming,
because the individual must agree before it can be truly successful.


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The Vatican School (ages 6 to 12)

At age six, the members of the top class (‘top’ is decided by the trainers according to the child’s performance in the previous 5 years) within the Jesuits
enter the Vatican school. Classes have both boys and girls – trainers assign children to classes not according to gender but by performance.
Other schools for training Jesuit children exist besides the Vatican one, and in all schools, the training will continue until graduation at age 12 - 13
(when the individual becomes a full Father in a special ceremony). Military training continues until late teens, with yearly “boot camps” the members
of the Jesuit army attend. Over time, the number of students diminishes (due to deaths during military exercises, or during programming) and by the time
the children are 12, fewer children remain than began classes at age 6.

A typical day would be as follows:
Wake up at 5 am. The school is divided by age into classes of 12 each, separated by age:
the six-year-olds are in one class, the seven-year-olds in another, etc.
Each class sleeps in rows of beds in the same room, with the class leader taking the position by the door (to answer if anyone comes, and protect
the class from any possible threats). Normally, the leader’s “second” and “third” in command will sleep near him or her. I was the class leader for my class,
so I slept closest to the door. The signal for waking up is a voice over speakers within the room saying
“Today is an opportunity to do great things for the Order; you are blessed to have this chance”.

Quick cleanup at the communal bathroom (5-minute showers done together in a large area);
dress quickly (easy, since the brown acolyte robes are hung up the day before; this is what the children wear until they receive a Father’s black robes
at age 12 or 13, except when they are being hosted in outside families, when they wear “normal” clothes for that country).
The children rush downstairs to the communal dining room, where a nutritious breakfast is served. They are allowed 8 minutes to eat (to this day,
I eat extremely quickly and never understood why, until I remembered the short times allowed to eat).
There may be assigned tasks before chapel that are relevant to the children’s training, such as checking supplies for the military exercises,
or cleaning up the lab areas, including the areas where animals are kept, such as primates, for experiments and teaching.

After chores, the children go to chapel. This is a time of singing and devotion (to Satan). The children sing beautifully, sounding like a professional choir,
but the lyrics are quite different from Christian hymns. The older children and teens at times create and write new songs, if they have musical talent.

After chapel, classes begin. The first classes are “gym” with physical training exercises, including martial arts, hand-to-hand combat, and learning
to climb ropes, etc. After this, the morning classes are devoted to typical school subjects, only much more advanced since the children are genetically
modified for strength and intelligence). Children have already learned to read, write, do math, think and ask questions in a logical manner and so on,
before the age of 6, preparing them to begin the more advanced studies in the Vatican school. Classes consist of learning various languages,
world and civilization history, politics, economics, the history of various religions, advanced math, reading classics from every culture
(in the original languages as the children get older).

At noon, there is a quick break and meal (15 minutes).

In the afternoon, there are “anatomy and physiology” classes where subjects (usually, homeless people or those purchased from refugee camps)
are used to teach topics such as how to torture (including skinning alive; paralysis points, pain points, how to use knives and other instruments
to inflict pain, including heated needles and rods). These classes also include demonstrations of various techniques for killing a human being,
from suffocation, to poisons (the children are taught how to administer, and see the effects), to knives, and other methods. The children are given
a living human being to “dissect” and learn anatomy from, since this knowledge is essential when torturing or programming others. In some of these classes,
a live demonstration of the various areas of the brain is conducted, with one of the trainers using a probe to show the response to various areas
being touched; and the children are taught to read brain monitors with real-time brain scans (much more advanced than the most advanced PET scans today),
to read emotional and cognitive responses to stimuli. Practical “on-hands” classes in how to do programming are done in the afternoon as well.

There is a half hour break in mid-afternoon, when the children are free to play soccer in an outdoor courtyard, or other active games.
Around 5 pm is a short dinner break.

In the evening (and, at times, in the afternoons) are the mage and witchcraft classes. This is when the children are taught spells, rituals,
how to sacrifice animals and humans (using techniques taught in the afternoon classes), and how to read and write the ancient magical manuscripts.

There is a short evening chapel afterwards, with a short talk about current world events and announcements of special events.

Bedtime comes at around 9 pm; although the children may be woken during the night during special holidays or seasons to participate in the associated rituals and/or festivities.

The above is a generic schedule. School runs year round, in 4-6 week intervals, with a short “summer break” although training still continues.
There is a short military camp at the end of each interval, and a special longer military camp. The children are also rotated through their host families,
making coordinating scheduling quite complex (there are individuals who do this scheduling of children and host families). A typical child may spend
a week in the UK with a host family, then complete 5 weeks of school; then, a brief military camp. After this, the child might be hosted in Germany
for a week or two with their German family (mother, father, brothers, sisters), then return to the school for 4 weeks and military camp. After this,
the child may spend 1 week in Russia, and 1 week in the US, then 1 week in Israel, then returns to Rome for more schooling.

While the child loves the host families in each presentation, they never fully bond to them; they know their real home is in Rome – with their brothers and sisters in their class, and with the Fathers they love.

The school years are very busy and full. There is very little time for “recreation” or free time, other than the daily break in the middle of the afternoon.
In addition to the above schedule, the child will undergo regular programming, and will also be learning to program others (a training class which teaches
the children how to install and reinforce programming is part of the core curriculum). Under the supervision of the older trainers, the children are mentored
until by age 12 they are full trainers, able to do all that the adults do in this area. Some children with specialized skills are given special mentorship
and become head trainers when they are older.

The child learns to perform surgery, both normal surgery (for healing), and specialized surgery such as performing placental transplants
(this technology has been available for years, and is now part of the prenatal programming done; the fetus is transplanted into another birth mother,
and is told that the first one “did not want” the fetus; this creates a huge rejection wound and bonds the fetus even more strongly to its trainers and the demonic.
The child also learns various neurosurgery skills, and may receive advanced training if they show ability.

During these years, the children go to other schools (often within a monastery) for a semester, and the children at the other schools will come
and spend a semester at the Vatican school. This allows for greater cross-training, and helps the children learn how things are done at various places.


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A Day in the Life of a Trainer

3:30 am:
My beeper, one of four that I have (for various facilities, plus a country that I am military commander over) goes off. I am sleepy,
having gone to bed just three hours before. But the work at a programming facility never ends, and the group I work for is not kind to its trainers – even
the head trainer over the facility. I get up, take a quick shower, and put on my clothes and lab coat, grab a cup of coffee and start the day.

4:00 am:
All of my trainers are gathered together to give a quick update on what is going on in the facility. These are bright, outstanding trainers,
and their reports are quick and to the point. Any unusual changes in the children and infants are noted, and the goals for the day are quickly discussed.
My beeper for another facility goes off, and I answer it. It is a crisis there; a child being trained attacked and nearly killed its trainer,
and has been put in isolation; the trainers are asking what they should do. I tell them to wait until I get there later in the day, and in the meantime
ask them to send the video records of the event for me to review right away.

4:30 am:
The day starts with a ritual, with all the trainers participating together. The trainers range in age from mid-40’s, to young training mentees of age four.
Most children are taught how to program others starting at age three, and by four, will follow their programmers around, learning how to program others from them.

4:50 am:
Facility rounds start with checking on the infants, to review their progress, their responses, and to address any difficulties (such as failure to thrive,
unusual responses) that have come up. These genetically enhanced infants are extremely bright, and greet their trainers with coos of delight.
This response has been repeatedly reinforced; any infant that turns away in anger from its trainers is brutally punished, and isolated/abandoned
to extinguish this behavior. The infants are rewarded for dissociation and their ability to smile, bond with, and attach to the people who torture them.
Today is the day that this group of infants, who are all roughly the same age, will undergo training to enjoy sadomasochistic sex.
The infants are roughly abused sexually, while at the same time tech stimulation of the pleasure centers of the brain is being done. The infants
have already learned to open their legs for sexual activity on hand and voice command, and this is another step in their training. One infant refuses
to open its legs on command, and is hung painfully upside down and whipped with a baby whip for this infraction.

5:45 am:
By this time, I have reviewed the video of the issue at the other facility, seen where the trainer made an error working with the super theta
(a child who has never been allowed outside the facility, has undergone horrific abuse and bonding, and has learned to channel its rage spiritually).
The trainer pushed the child too hard, did not look for its cues of stress, and the child reacted predictably. I resolve to put the child with another trainer,
and to discuss what went wrong with the trainers at the facility. I sigh. I wonder what caused the trainer to push so hard, and how I will deal with him
at the meeting I will have privately later with him and his mentor at the facility. He is 17 years old, has been programming children for 14 years now,
and should know better.

6:15 am:
I have grabbed another cup of coffee and a brioche for breakfast, brought to me by one of my students. I have 24 students that I work with intensely,
who are all top trainer potentials themselves. They vie with each other to see who can bring me coffee, or lab reports, or meals in order to spend
extra time with me, since I am their primary trainer and the person they love most on earth. I make them take turns, since I don’t like to play favorites.
I feel a small trickle of dread in my stomach, and push it away. It is time to go check on the birth mothers in another level of the facility.

6:30 am:
Rounds at the birth mother area are done, with all students and trainers involved in this area present. There are currently 15 birth mothers in private rooms.
It is month seven of the prenatal training, and all of the birth mothers look inhuman, with heads and pubic areas shaved; their teeth all missing
(pulled out during torture sessions); and missing arms and legs due to the slow removal of digits, then hands and feet, then lower limbs, and finally
the cutting off of the entire limb. Because of the healing technology, the stumps have healed well, but the birth mothers have almost completely
lost their humanity. They have just finished eating breakfast, a nutritious mush in a bowl, which they eat out of like dogs on the floor since
they have no hands to eat with. The birth mothers alternately howl and whimper as we come and assess the fetuses; they have learned to associate
the presence of lab coats and trainers with inhuman torture. The fetuses are growing well, and respond positively on the brain scans to hearing the voices
of their primary trainers, who they are completely bonded to since the emotional “leaving” of their birth mothers after months of torture
which was blamed on the fetus. The fetuses will undergo their celestial city programming today, with visits from actors who represent the main controllers
within the city, and a visit from the occultic “messiah” who promises to give them peace, safety and joy as they obey him. Later, “hell” programming
with birth mother torture in a simulated hell will be reinforced.

7 am:
By now, I have had 12 calls from five facilities to solve problems and answer questions from head trainers at each, and will need to get ready for
a meeting with several of the facility sub-directors to discuss a new programming sequence recently developed for two-year olds that will be implemented.
The new sequence improves on the older version of the installation of elements as barriers: the new River Styx and water barrier sequences in the VRs
will replace older ones, since they contain certain things the previous programs left out.

8:30 am:
I leave this facility, to go to one in another country. I will be meeting with the head trainers at the facility with the student who attacked a trainer,
and deciding how to proceed.

12 noon:
The previous issues are resolved, and I have reinforced the need to look for subtle signs and cues of stress in children who do not exhibit
normal reactions due to their highly abnormal life to the trainers at Facility B (the supertheta training center). I also discuss the need for extra
bonding time to prevent attacks like this. The trainers agree that the incident could have been prevented, and a new protocol is created and put into place
for prevention. I am now on another flight to another facility where genetics research is being conducted. I eat a quick meal brought to me
by one of the five advanced students (ranging in age from eight to 15) who accompany me. These are my top students, who I am mentoring, and they will
one day become some of the top trainers in the world. I catch a quick nap, between emails and making several phone calls to resolve issues
at the other four facilities that I oversee.

2 pm:
My students and I make rounds with the head scientists and researchers at the genetics lab. On the way to rounds, I quiz these mentees on the main
genetic markers we will be looking for in this new group of zygotes, and ask questions regarding how they would conduct the research if they were in charge.
I am developing future leaders, and am truly interested in their responses, since they are often more intelligent than the current head scientists.
They give the correct responses, and we review what will become G19 (Generation 19) genetic enhancements. The scientists have learned how to add
exceptional coordination to enhanced muscle mass that is not obvious, since the muscles have a specific shape that appears normal, but is much stronger
than ordinary. Enhanced healing abilities have also been added.

4 pm:
I have reviewed lab reports and had Skype conferences with the facility sub-directors and trainers for all the facilities that I oversee.
I am now flying to the cult facility school, where the children aged six to 12 go to daily classes. I am also the head over this school, and will be meeting
with the teachers to review student progress. As I walk down the hall, I am greeted by numerous people, and eager children wave at me or smile as I walk by.
The children are on an accelerated schedule, which includes physics at age 7, calculus, and the equivalent of a full medical degree by age 10, among other classes.
Some of the classes include language skills (in all the major world languages), and mage classes in the afternoon. I go to my office at the school,
and am greeted by a head teacher who brings a “difficult” student who played pranks on the instructor for me to deal with. These children have extremely
high IQs (far above 200, on average), and their greatest delight in life seems to be trying to outwit their trainers and instructors.
Because creativity and problem-solving are encouraged, some of this is allowed; but I must discipline children who cross the line. This student
hacked into the main computer of the school, getting past all the firewalls and security measures in place, and replaced a training video
with a video in which all of the trainers involved were naked. I keep my smile to myself at the effort, intelligence and computer skills this prank took,
and with a stern look on my face, order the student to go naked for the afternoon in front of their peers; a true humiliation.
It is not okay for students to show insubordination to teachers.

6 pm:
I have dinner in my private office with a friend for a few quiet moments alone – a rarity. I then go to evening vespers in the chapel,
where the children sing beautiful praises to satan with voices that sound like the Vienna Boys Choir.

8 pm:
After several classes on conducting rituals, and the routine evening sacrifices, I meet with the head of the cult intelligence unit and
the second in command in the Assassin Corp. The two are having an argument, and ask me to mediate. The second in the Assassin Corp feels that
the intelligence that they received from one of the Asian countries was unreliable based on the reports from one of the Corp members in that country.
The head of intelligence argues back that his agents are completely reliable and fast, and have gathered sufficient intelligence for the Corp mission there.
After hearing both sides, I and several others decide that the intelligence unit needs to spend more time gathering intel, because we do not want
to compromise an agent in the field due to inadequate information. This is also based upon past experience with the Assassin corp second, who is very bright,
perceptive and has good intuition regarding such matters. My top student, who will be training intelligence and assassin personnel like these
in a couple of years, is present for the meeting in order to learn, but is not allowed to add her input. I do ask for it afterwards, and she gives remarkably perceptive answers.

9:30 pm:
I must go to a ceremonial dinner at a major meeting between our group and several others. I will also be gathering intelligence for our group,
so I am dressed in a designer gown, full makeup and put on my most charming aspect. Even as a facility director, I often must go on missions myself,
especially those that are politically sensitive or that require specialized skills. The group I am in only allows the best to teach others,
and so I must use these skills now.

1 am:
I finally go to bed, for a couple of hours, knowing that my day will start in a few hours. After 20 minutes, my beeper goes off;
I am being paged to handle another crisis in another part of the world.


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System Organization

During infancy, the master and system controllers are created, along with the parts and roles within these systems. The Jesuits program three main levels
into their systems: a white, or cover layer. This will appear to be Illuminati, Templar Knight, Opus Dei, or another occultic group, and is complete,
even to the “core” for this level, which is a false core meant to mislead anyone who attempts to break into the system without authorization.

This cover layer is there for a reason. The Jesuits often have their agents highly placed within the occultic organizations they oversee, and they don’t want
the organizations to realize that the individual is not an actual member. The system is created to look completely like the system of someone raised
and programmed by the organization. The agent is actually there to review and report on the activities of the group’s leadership to the Vatican.

There is another reason for this cover programming. Jesuit agents often spend time in Israel and other countries doing intelligence work; if picked up
by the Mossad (Israeli intelligence) or Spetz (Russian intelligence), and interrogated (tortured), the other organization will believe that the agent
works for one of these groups, and have no idea that they actually work for the Vatican.

Jesuits who leave will always remember their white, or “cover” programming first and believe this is all there is inside. The other layers are much more
loyal and difficult to uncover.

Beneath the white level is the black, or Vatican level of programming. This is where controllers and parts loyal to the Vatican, the Jesuits,
and to Satan reside. High priests and priestesses that were involved in Vatican ceremonies will be part of the black theta system, just as high priests
and priestesses loyal to the Illuminati (or other group) and its deities will reside in the white theta system.

Beneath the white and black levels is the silver-grey, or new world order (antichrist) level. These systems have been created
to serve the antichrist, and the NWO, are given specific roles, and are controllers for the two other levels. The grey level controllers and parts
have always undergone extensive death and resuscitations, since this level is composed of “ascended masters” who have overcome their fear of death,
and in fact, many of these parts live in a near-death, ecstatic and numb state of being. The Phoenix is the sign of an ascended master who has overcome
death and risen again.

The infant is taught to organize their system along brain wave states, and to respond to cues. The earliest cues include golden whistles
that play different notes worn by the Fathers, to summon specific parts; colors (the infant is taught to crawl to a green light when a gamma controller
is out; to a blue light when a beta controller is out, a white light when an alpha controller is out, etc.).

Tones are also used extensively in early master programming. The top master controllers are each assigned a tone, to correspond with a brain wave state:
the highest tone represents gamma, next highest, beta; next highest, alpha, then epsilon, then theta, and finally, the lowest, delta.
Hearing the tone pulls the controllers for that system forward (the infant is taught with shocks and trauma combined with rewards to respond immediately).

Master controllers for a system are programmed to respond to the entire continuum, and internally, can “sing” the tones and hear back the response tones
for their systems, for vary rapid and unconscious feedback loops and triggers. Jesuits always have perfect pitch because of this extensive use of tones
and harmonics combined with the early songs used in programming, and have perfect auditory recall.


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Tech Torture

In international occultic groups and many governmental organizations, the trend has increasingly been to use technological torture on individuals being programmed.

What is tech torture? In general, this refers to a combination of technologies and techniques that are used to simulate, entrain and install punishment within individuals.

Virtual Reality
The state of virtual reality (VR) used by modern cult groups is at least 50 to 75 years ahead of the latest state-of-the-art equipment publicly available.
While VR and holograms were initially used in the late 1950’s and early 1960’s (by groups with the funds to purchase them), the technology has improved
radically since 1995. In the past decade, the technology can create extremely realistic alternate realities that are almost indistinguishable from true reality.

Using VR, programmers can:
- Take photos and videos of therapists and their offices using microtechnology cameras, and create a VR “session” to program a survivor against the therapist.
- Install programming sequences of any type, from “ascension to celestial heaven” for an infant, to “demons from hell tearing a child apart” and others.
When final installation of a program is checked for loyalty and obedience programming, for instance, the child may be told to “shoot and kill”
a family member in highly realistic VR.
- Create horrendous punishment and pain sequences, using brain prints and scans downloaded from actual victims, in which the individual being programmed
experiences extremely realistic renditions of things such as:
• Legs and arms being torn off, with realistic pain
• Hot rods inserted into orifices
• Being burned alive
• All bones in the body being broken, and then radiated (which causes swelling and intense pain)
• Being skinned alive
• Bees swarming over the person, and stinging them

These and other tortures (the list goes on, based on the demonic creativity of the programmers) are so realistic and terrible, that those undergoing it
must be monitored for “VR shock” which can actually cause the person to go into shock and die if untreated. VR can be one reason for memories
that seem “impossible” based upon the individual’s being alive and unscarred, since VR leaves emotional and spiritual scars, but no physical ones.
Demonic healing is another reason that no scars after torture remain.

Machine Programming: Tesla waves and Microbursts
For years, the cults have been aware of Tesla waves and its applications to create changes within tissue that rival microwave and laser, but with
greater energy. This energy wave was harnessed, first for use over larger areas, and then in the 1970’s, research was done upon harnessing the waves
at the micro level. Eventually in the mid-1990’s, a machine was developed that was able to use Tesla waves and microbursts of energy to change
brain waves and develop internal resonance within the brain.

This technology was further developed, and eventually was used to create deep stimulation of the neural pain centers during programming. This type of
tech torture creates agonizing pain throughout the neural chain, and is used as the base for modern pain and punishment systems that guard high-security
information inside. Various waveforms are created to create pain and terror through direct stimulation of the pain areas; the terror areas,
or the despair areas within the brain.

Entrainment is used in combination with this type of torture. In a typical session, the individual is placed in a machine
(called the “God machine” by some groups), which appears as clear plastic. Inside, the individual is surrounded by a holographic screen that appears
when the programming session is active. Their brain scans are continuously displayed for the programmers to view, in order to see when the programming “takes”
(there are specific changes in the brain scans that occur when this happens).

The entrainment will begin over several hours at a time, with various tones that reflect brain states played in a sequence. In one example,
the tones for gamma, beta, alpha, epsilon, theta and delta, then deep delta and death state are played in sequence, and the individual being programmed
is slowly entrained to “follow” the tones, and go from one brain state to another in sequence. Very gradually, the tones become more rapid,
until the brain is entrained and taught to perform a very rapid drop from high gamma (or even omicron) state, to deep delta or even death state.
This rapid drop in brain state creates a sense of “falling” or “dropping” in the parts (often infants or fetuses) being programmed, and is extremely painful,
creating terror in the parts that undergo it.

There are many other forms of entrainment. The entrainment takes weeks and months to be programmed in fully.

7 X 7 Programming
7 X 7 is a specific form of punishment and pain programming that involves the entrainment within the brain of 7 lines of tech torture, at 7 levels of pain.
While at the lowest level of it running, the first line runs at the lowest level, continued disobedience to cult commands and directives (such as failure
to recontact; or failure to forget, or dismantling programming) can eventually cause all 7 lines to run simultaneously at the highest (7th) level of pain.

This is very difficult, painful and terrifying programming to undo, and is installed in individuals who work in high-security areas.
Undoing it requires significant emotional support, pain medication if available when running, and the ability to abreact the programming lines.
Eventually, if the survivor does not recontact, the programming does fail, but can take a significant amount of time to run down.

Mobile tech (helmets, VR goggles)
Unfortunately, the above technology (which began being used more widely in 2003) has become mobile in recent years. While programming in a machine is
done at programming centers, there are helmets and VR goggles/nets that can simulate the entrainment and reinforce tech torture programming.
The VR goggles have a silver net that fits over the head, and will create a virtual “machine” that simulates machine torture as described above.
Programmers will have libraries of microdiscs that they insert into the VR equipment, and will use tablet-sized computers for monitoring brain scans
and other vital parameters during the programming.

For this reason, if a person is accessed in a van, or small space, they may undergo a rapid re-programming session using mobile technology.
This is yet another reason to break recontact programming as quickly as possible.

Side effects of Tech Torture can include:
• Feeling as if the individual is “vibrating” internally at a rapid rate. This lasts for roughly 6 weeks after a programming session,
then becomes less intense over time.
• Severe, deep headaches at the back of the head, and in the center of the brain (including feeling as if the center of the brain is a “hot coal” inside).
Because the deep neural centers have been directly stimulated, the headaches are atypical.
• Hyperthermia and hypothermia: during the tech torture and entrainment, the individual’s core temperature often rises, and cooling blankets
are put on them. As the programming is broken, they may re-experience these body memories. They become less frequent and less intense with time.
• Extreme restlessness and feeling as if the individual is “crawling out of their skin”: this is associated with the tesla waves vibrating internally
• Tingling and even shocking (electrically) if the head is touched: because the entrainment literally trains the brain to shock itself,
this is one side effect that can occur. Supporters may feel a mild to moderate shock if they place their hand on the survivor’s head,
as the electrical activity works its way out of the body.
• Extreme soreness on the top of the head, or the back (bottom) of the head

All of the above symptoms will pass with time and healing; and it is important to reassure the survivor that these are normal side effects
when breaking the programming.


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Wolf and Sheep Training

During the second year of life (12 months to 24 months) it is important to the Jesuits that high barriers are placed between the “front” or presentations,
and the “back” or loyal parts. One way this is accomplished is with “wolf” and “sheep” programming.


The back, or hidden, parts are taught that they are wolves. The Jesuit Fathers raise wolves for this purpose, and will take the young child and place them
in a pen with a mother wolf and her cubs. The child will have been sprayed with wolf scent, and the mother will normally let the child join her cubs.
The child is told that he or she is a wolf, and is treated exactly like one: the child nurses on the mother wolf; is fed with the cubs, and is taught to
crawl on all fours, and even to growl like a wolf. They are taught that wolves are strong, cruel, fierce and protective, and that they must guard
the “weaker” systems by doing the tasks that “sheep” cannot do.

Once this program is in place, the front systems undergo “sheep” training. They are placed with sheep, and eventually believe that they are lambs or sheep;
eating with the sheep, sleeping curled up with the other lambs, and in every way being treated as if they are a sheep.

To place a barrier between the systems, the Fathers then cause the two systems to traumatize one another. The “wolves” are told to “attack” the sheep
and to try to kill them. This causes the front to become angry and to distrust them. The wolves are also taught to hate “sheep” and believe they “stink”
by having a slain lamb tied to their back for several days. The carcass becomes ridden with flies and stinks terribly; the body itches and the child becomes
violently ill, and they are taught that this is the result of being close to a sheep. These parts cannot come close to front parts, that they believe are sheep,
without smelling the rotten carcass that made them so ill as a very young child. This makes the back very unwilling to come near the front.

Other barriers between front and back are also installed during this second year. This includes a wall with gargoyles and demonic guardians
that is erected between the front and back, which is overseen by Janus (the Roman deity with two faces). One face observes the “front” or presenting systems;
the other, the back, or hidden systems. Certain parts can pass through the doors, but those without authorization are immediately torn by the demonic guardians
placed between front and back. The demonic is allowed to pass freely between front and back.

In addition to these barriers, others are placed. One is an extensive “buffer” system. These have entrained neurolinguistic programming in place,
and their role is to be emotionless and to stand between the front and the back, “ buffering” the front from any knowledge of what the back is doing,
and vice-versa. Their role is to prevent the two sides from actually meeting or communicating, and to keep the amnesia in place through constant ingrained “wipeout” programming.

This wipeout programming can consist of a combination of traumas that are re-experienced, such as internal shocks to the head, EHF and/or microwave bursts
to the frontal lobes, or other similar traumas that were used to originally wipe out memories of assignments. If the survivor attempts to cross the barrier,
they may experience flashing lights, blizzard, extreme headaches, eye pain, nausea, dark bursts within the deep brain, or other trauma that occurred
when the barrier was originally put in.


Sex Parties

I am four years old. My twin sister, Elizabeth, and I are naked, covered only with dark blue velvet cloaks. Around our necks are jeweled collars,
and we are being led in on a lease as if we are a pair of dogs by one of the fathers. Once inside the huge room which is filled with adults in various
states of dress and undress, many with wine or cocktail glasses in the hand, we wait.

There is a large raised pedestal in the middle of the room. It is about four feet by four feet, made of granite, with small steps in the back.
Liz and I watch as one by one, young children are led up to the pedestal. They must stand, naked, while adults in the room “bid” for the chance to have
sexual activities with each child for the night. The trainers discuss the sexual training that each child has, and bids are made with small,
hand-held fans encrusted with jewels, scarlet and blue patterns, and gold leaf. Winners of each bid come up to the platform to collect their prize for the night.

Liz and I are two of the lucky ones. We each have a special temporary tattoo that lets those bidding know that we cannot be killed, although
we can be used for anything else. This tattoo is a reminder that if we are killed, the person who killed us will suffer severe consequences,
due to our “belonging” to an extremely influential person who wants us kept alive. We are on “loan” for the night, supposedly by the German father
over the Illuminati, and we are supposedly his bastard children who have other skills that make him want us alive.

At some point, Liz and I are taken and led by our leashes onto the pedestal. I feel ashamed and embarrassed to be on display, naked,
before a room full of people, but have learned to hide this. I smile and look excited and coquettish at this “privilege”.
An individual can bid for one, or both of us. This night, two separate people bid for us. The one who bids and wins me is an older woman
who is dressed only in a necklace, bracelets and earrings made of diamonds. The diamonds sparkle in the dim lights as I go to her.
She does not tell me her name, but it is obvious that she is wealthy and powerful, not only from her jewels, but her body language and speech.

“What can you do, little girl?” she asks. While the trainer has already discussed my skills, she wants to hear it from me;
maybe this is some type of test, or maybe she wants to humiliate me further.

“What do you like?” I reply, as I have been coached by my trainers.

She smiles and describes her favorite extremely sadistic activities. Her teeth are white and gleaming as she smiles. With dismay, I realize
that those same teeth will be used soon to bite me in extremely sensitive, private areas. I tremble slightly, knowing that this is what she wants to see,
but my reaction is not completely acting. I am sorry a woman bid because they can be some of the cruelest, most sadistic abusers. It is almost
as if they have spent years devising ways to give “payback” for their own early sexual abuse but with interest. I have always wondered why they seem to be
most vicious to little girls, wondered whether this is working out their own childhood abuse on a child that reminds them of themselves,
but I never voice this out loud to a client. I do voice these thoughts with the fathers during debriefing afterwards.

I perform well. I let the sadistic woman have her way with me for hours. She seems very inventive, and I feel worn out emotionally and physically
by the early morning. I am also sore everywhere. I have screamed appropriately, sensing that this is what this woman wants to hear as she abuses me.
Finally, finally she herself is tired and falls asleep. Quietly, I get up and look for my twin. I worry about her in situations like this, as I know
she worries about me. Tattoo or no tattoo, there is always the concern that a client might get carried away and go too far;
many enjoy abusing children to death. But to my great relief, I see her sitting in a corner of the room, half asleep.

The father who brought us in, who is thought of in the German Illuminati as one of their trainers, but is actually a Jesuit father, sees that
we are done with our clients. He brings my sister and me our cloaks. We are grateful to be covered, that the night is almost over, and leave with him.
Outside, he takes us into a waiting van, unsnaps our leashes, and talks to my sister and me.

“You did very well,” Father Carlotti starts. “You both performed perfectly with the clients.”

I then realize that like me, he also had concerns, and was monitoring both of us and our clients closely during the night in hopes to
intervene in time if something life-threatening seemed to be imminent.

Carlotti asks, “What did you learn while you were there?” He is asking us for intel, prompting us to report the conversations among adults in the room
that we were listening to throughout the night, adults who did not suspect that four-year-old children were capable of being agents with photographic memories
who would report any information discussed by them while in a drunken state. We give him the information he requests.

Once we are in a safe house not too far away, one owned by the Order, Lizzie and I are given baths, and wash off the body fluids
that our clients left with us. We are also given medications to help prevent disease. Father Carlotti inspects us carefully to ensure that
there is no significant harm. He provides healing technology for a rectal laceration that I have, and a gash in my twin’s arm inflicted by her client,
a male, biting her.

“Human bites are the worst,” he mutters, as he cleans out the bite with a special formula, applying healing so that no scar is left. He then says
to both of us, “I am so proud of you. I love you so much.”

Lizzie and I then go to sleep in soft, warm beds that are side-by-side. I go to sleep holding my sister’s hand.

“I love you, Lizzie” I tell her.

“I love you, Luce”, she answers, and then we sleep for hours. There will be no training routine tomorrow; we are given a day off to spend with each other
and one of the fathers. They understand how difficult nights like the previous one can be on very young children and give us this small respite.
Of course, the day after our rest, we go back to our normal routine.

Of course, Lizzie and I told ourselves that we were two of the “lucky ones” with the special tattoo. We had seen and heard far too many children
who were called expendable by the adults around us die slow, terrible deaths at these parties. Secretly, deep inside, however, I wonder if the children
who died, who no longer have to experience any more pain, were the lucky ones. I can’t say this to Lizzie, or she will be forced to let the fathers know,
and this will be emotionally painful for her. So I keep silent.

All children in the Jesuit Order are trafficked, but we did not define it that way. Attending and being abused at these types of parties
held by the extremely wealthy in Europe and other countries was framed as doing a “mission”, one that involved a specific set of skills,
skills that could “help the Order.” What we did was not defined as being abused, but as participating in a potentially dangerous activity.
But all missions were dangerous to some extent. We were allowed to be “real agents” according to the fathers,
and they were using our deep desire to do great things for the Order, when we were put in these situations.

But the reality is that my twin sister and I, and all of the other children I grew up with, were being terribly sexually abused and trafficked.
The fathers who forced us to do this had been subjected to non-stop sexual abuse as children themselves. They did not realize how monstrous
what they were asking us to do was; after all, they had to do it when they were young as well.

But the terror, anguish, sadness, grief and sense of betrayal, along with deep rage at the father who led my sister and me into this
potentially life-threatening situation, risking our lives for the sake of gaining useful information, came forward as I processed this memory.


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Hidden Illuminati Child

I am 16 years old and Anagram (Ana), my Illuminati cult presenter, is fronting in Germany. I am at one of the Illuminati’s private medical facilities.
The doctors here have just confirmed that I am pregnant, and ascertained that the fetus is male. My Illuminati mother is with me. She immediately
makes a call to the head of the German family because the child has been fathered by David Rothschild, and may prove a useful tie with the Rothschilds
in the future. I pay close attention to the call because I need to know the fate of this child. Would the German father decide that another
Battenberg-Rothschild bastard son would not be useful at this point, and so order an abortion? Even worse, would this child be sold at birth
into the violent, perverse underworld of sex trafficking and human experimentation? Would I be ordered to foster the child out? Or, maybe,
just maybe – I might be allowed to keep my son and raise him myself. Waves of love flood me for my little unborn son, and how I wish that
I could be the one to dictate his fate.

The discussion between my mother, who is one of my main Illuminati programmers and the German father continues. Another voice enters the call,
and I hear Timothy Brogan, another one of my main programmers join the conversation. He strongly advises that we retain this child because
my maternal instincts could then be harnessed for loyalty to the cult and my programming.

As Ana, I know full well that it is extremely common for teenage girls in the Illuminati to be allowed or encouraged to bear a child who is then
fostered out or ‘hidden’ in other Illuminati households. This child is essentially a hostage, i.e., the young mothers are told that if
their programming fails or they disobey orders from the cult, then they would never be allowed to see their child again, or the child will be killed.
Typically, although the Illuminati cult presenters remember the child and look forward to the times they are allowed to be together, the non-cult,
ordinary day presenters have no memory of the hidden child because they are told that the child would be painfully killed if they ever
remember him or her, or the cult. In this way, the hidden son or daughter helps ensure the amnesia of the non-cult presenters and the obedience
of the cult presenters, as an Illuminati child matures into adolescence. I am only surprised that at 16, I have not already been made to have a hidden child.

For a moment I allow myself to hope that my non-cult presenters might be allowed to have the story of being a teenaged mother and so I might
actually get to raise the child myself. My heart sinks bitterly, however, as the conversation develops into a detailed discussion of the advantages
of fostering my son with the Rothschilds.

“It will cause them to trust Ana more,” notes Brogan.
“This is critical as they are already showing interest in her skills as an oracle,” my mother puts in.

I tune them out as they continue the discussion, wrapping my arms around my belly. Although I do not have the power to keep him, at least,
I have the power to love him as long as he is still with me.

The next time I am in France, I tell David, “I’m pregnant,” as I have been told to do by the German family.
“Well, don’t let it come near me until it’s old enough to carry on a decent conversation,” he replies casually.
I think to myself, “Typical David, he doesn’t have a paternal bone in his body.”

It is time for the birth, and I am attended by my twin sister, as expected, and by the people I am closest to in my family: my mother, sister,
and my beloved friend, Barbara, who is also a high-ranking trainer. As I deliver my son, I feel a deep surge of sorrow inside. As Ana, I have absolutely
no idea that this birth has triggered the deep anguish that my Jesuit cult presenter, Luce, experienced when she had to sacrifice her firstborn
years before in Rome. Instead, I believe that it is because I am remembering sacrificing my firstborn son in Germany when I was 13, a required
ritual for all Illuminati teenagers. My sadness is dispelled, however, when I catch my first glimpse of my red-faced, crying, very healthy young son.
His name is David, in honor of his father. I tenderly pick him up, hold him to my breast, and nurse him, ecstatic at becoming a mother.
My attendants all congratulate me, and I fall asleep soon afterwards, my infant son next to me in a small bassinet.

That evening, they move baby David and I to a small stone cottage on the property of the Rothschild main summer residence, with a servant to take care us.
Over the next few weeks, I am allowed plenty of time with baby David. I nurse him, burp him, change him, and coo over him. I am completely in love.
He has started growing fine wisps of light brown hair, and his eyes are still an infant blue. I am convinced that when I smile at him, he smiles back
at times, although he is still so young. My mother, sister, Barbara and other close friends in the Illuminati visit frequently. I never tire of showing
David off to them, or of talking about him to them. They smile patiently, and agree with me that he is indeed marvelous.

During one visit, however, my mother states firmly, “It’s time to take him to his foster home.”
She had warned me about this event coming several days before, but I had refused to think about it.

I begin crying. “I don’t want to give him up!” I yell. My loud voice startles baby David and seeming almost in sympathy, he begins crying loudly.
“See, he wants to stay with me!” I begin crying, and both David and I have tears streaming down our faces.
“You know you have to do this,” my mother and sister remind me. “You will be able to visit David from time to time, and he will always know
that you are his real mother and how much you love him.”

Their words don’t help. I love my baby, and cannot bear to give him up.
“I can’t,” I say, trembling. “I’m not able to give him up.”

“If you don’t, you know I can’t let you keep him, if he makes you weak. I will kill him myself to make sure that doesn’t happen,” my mother
hisses at me. At this moment, I hate her with a blinding rage. I hate this woman who throughout my life has never tolerated weakness in any form,
who has pushed me since earliest childhood with her own blind ambition.

I cannot keep David, but I can make my feelings known.
“I hate you, I hate you, bitch!” I tell my mother. “I will never forgive you for this!”
“Hate me if you must, but know that I am doing my best to protect you and my grandson, even though you can’t realize it now,” my mother says.
She reaches out for my son, and I clutch him to my breast.
“Mother, please, don’t do this,” I sob, as anguished tears flow down my face. Little David is crying in tandem with me, his fists curled
and his screams filling the room.
“Ana, you must, and you know it!” my mother replies. She sends Lizzie to go and ask two men in the next room to come in and help her take my son away.
The men literally hold me and pry my arms open, and take my son, who is still screaming, away. I lie down on the bed, and feel as if I am dying.
I cannot describe the loss and bereavement I feel.

I pull myself to my feet and scream, “Kill me, mother!” I cannot even see her for the red haze of rage and grief,
“Kill me, finish off what you have started today!”
“Ana, stop it!” she screams back. “You will see David in a year, once he is settled in his new home. Don’t you want him to live? To have a good life?”
“I could have given him a good life!” I yell in anguish.
“You are only a teen, without money of your own. How could you possibly support him? And yourself? For you would both become outcasts if you failed
to give him up. Is that the life you want for your son?”

I lie on the bed, and cry for hours, until exhausted, I fall asleep. I have told my mother to leave and not come near me again.
Lizzie and Barbara hold me and comfort me. Later in the day, Brogan comes and sits next to me on the bed.
“I hear that giving up wee David was hard on you,” he says, in his brogue that seems like a mix of northern UK and Scottish.
“I know your heart is breaking,” he continues.
“You have no idea!” I sob, “I will never recover from this!”
“Aye, I know it feels that way now,” Brogan says.
“But one day, you will see your son as a fine young man in a successful career, and feel proud of what you did for him today.”
“I will never be proud of this!” I insist. “I hate you and everyone else for making me do this!”
“You are going through the pangs of motherhood and loss, what all girls your age must go through,” Brogan tells me.
“All survive this pain, and it really is for a purpose: to remind you that the daytime presentations must never remember us. To remind you to always obey.
For your young son is your covenant to do so, and his life depends on you. I know the price is dear, and has cost you more than you feel you can bear.
But for the sake of all the others you love, you must do so. For you also hold their lives in your hands – and your heart – and they also have done
the same for you, including your mother, your sister, and your friend.” He turns and looks at Barbara, who is four years older than me, who nods sadly at me. “I had to send my son away to a foster family too,” she whispers. “I know how really hard this is on you.”
I see tears in her eyes, and realize that my closest friend in the Illuminati does understand.
“How did you survive?” I ask.
“One second at a time at first,” she says, coming over to me and taking my hand. “It helps that I can see him whenever I am in Germany.
They let me play with him, and he calls me ‘Mama’ and it means the world to me to know that he is doing well.”
“Oh, Barbara,” I say, and fall into her arms, weeping. The others leave, and the two of us cry together for a period of time, and then she holds and kisses me.
“I wish I could live a different life,” I whisper to her.
“S-s-h-h!” she cautions me, whispering into my ear. “They can listen to us, you know. Don’t say anything you don’t want reported back.”
“At this point, I don’t care,” I tell her.
“But one day, you will,” she reminds me. “And your son will, too.” So wordlessly, she holds me and comforts me throughout the night.


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Hybrid Labs

Over the years, there have been questions raised and discussions of what have been called “nephilim”, “beautiful ones”, etc., and whether they are real or not.
In the Bible, in Genesis, there is mention of “the sons of God” (believed to be angels) having relations with human women, and creating a race of nephilim.
The book of Enoch in the Apocrypha also makes some reference to them. Many believe that the myths of half human/half “god” individuals in ancient mythology
describe these beings.

What I will share here is based upon my own memories while in the group of these things. I realize that these are recovered memories, shared by parts.
Some may disbelieve what I share here, while others may be surprised.

The Jesuit order has been involved in trying to create half-demonic/half-human individuals for many years (since the early 1900’s, especially).
This attempt is known as the “Hybrid Project” by those in the order, with the express intent of creating “satan’s son” and includes the following elements:
-A large underground facility (located in Czechoslovakia). This facility has numerous altars within in, where sacrifices are done continuously
day and night, for the spiritual empowerment of the project. This facility is equipped with high-tech equipment.
– numerous staff who have strong theta (psychic spiritual) gifts
-birth mothers selected for size, genetics and strength, including strength of will to live.

The latter is extremely important, because carrying a hybrid child is very difficult on the mother. Once impregnated, the birth mother will experience
extreme oppression and depression, and over the months, as the fetus grows, the birth mother may literally die from the amount of spiritual oppression
in which the mother feels literally consumed from within. In other cases, the mother will abort the fetus before she herself dies, partway
through the pregnancy (this happened to me at age 14, when I was a carrier).

In the earlier days of the project, abortions and birth mother deaths were much more common. Many of the hybrid children born only looked partially human.
Over time, the technology was developed, along with enhanced genetics (later generation birth mothers were stronger). Omega teams
(individuals with strong omega skills) were also developed, during which a group of spiritually strong individuals would spend time around the clock
with the birth mother, and literally “take” for a period of time the oppression for her, which allowed birth mothers to carry fetuses to term, and live.

In recent years, several hybrids have been born that look quite human, and that are the product of a spirit father and human mother during specific rituals.
One is an individual that the Jesuits believe is “he who has come” or satan’s son; this individual is currently 18 years old.

The main issue regarding hybrids is that they do not think or act like humans. These beings have incredibly strong spiritual abilities, and are born
with a natural desire to kill. They do not have to be “trained to kill” as humans do; instead, they must be taught to NOT kill, through bonding
with a human (usually the birth mother, who is normally a very high-ranking spiritual individual). The birth mothers feed these infants with
a combination of milk and blood, obtained by cutting themselves as they nurse the hybrid infant.

These children are incredibly beautiful, although some (but not all) are a bit “odd” in appearance; they may have titanium white hair and violet eyes;
or be incredibly strong (they develop coordination and muscle mass much more quickly than full humans). They are able to send very strong demonic attacks
(theta skills). They are exceptionally intelligent, and often take on the characteristics of their “birth spirit” as well as the human mother.

The ultimate plan is that the hybrid children being raised now (must are under age 8) will form the future leadership council of the order.

One of the reasons that I left the order years ago was that I disagreed with this. I saw the terrible things done in these labs, and realized that
these creatures do not love human beings, or care about their welfare at all. They actually hate all humans, and require significant bonding
and gentling to even be able to appear normal to some degree. I remember going to a Jesuit monastery in southern Poland years ago (early in the project days)
to work with a hybrid toddler that the staff were afraid of. The toddler had gotten out very early one morning, gone into the chicken coop,
and killed all the chickens by pulling their heads off. The toddler was sitting there, eating them, when I arrived. This type of horrific scene can occur with these beings.

After experiences like this, I felt that the order was wrong to fund and staff the hybrid labs, and chose to leave in protest.
This was not “improving the world” in any sense; it was senseless to attempt to breed these beings that had a natural cruelty.

I do realize that what I have written here sounds unbelievable – that by writing this, I risk being blown off as a “nut”.
I wish with all my heart it wasn’t true. But this is occurring, and I ask that all Christians join in prayer that this type of occultic activity would be stopped.


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The Real Agenda Behind the Occult

As I have healed, my parts inside have shared more and more of the “real picture” of what was going on during my life. Early on, I had recovered
some memories which were part of the story, but by no means the whole story of my life. This is due to the fact that healing is a process, and over time,
as parts deeper within the system have shared information, I have learned more. Early in my healing, I had only learned about my six brainwave systems
(alpha, beta, gamma, delta, epsilon, theta) and had not discovered the six systems that were previously unknown to me (omicron, mu, null, lambda, omega, and chi).
When I remembered these other six previously unknown systems, I remembered more about the cult’s agendas, as that information was held in these systems.

When I was younger, I believed that the goal of occult groups, including the one I was raised in, was to create a “better world” through the
coming New World Order. I truly believed, in my cult host, that I was serving mankind by preparing to help usher in the time of “he who is to come”
who after his birth was known as “he who has come” as well as by other names.

I worked hard to improve things, and dedicated to my life to what I believed would be the betterment of mankind. What I had not remembered at that time
was the secret held by my core (Chi) system, which was wholly dedicated to Satan: that the group I was in, while publicly stating their desire to bring in new world order filled with joy and peace, was actually committed to the complete destruction of mankind.

The reason for this is simple: they serve Satan, and that is his agenda; he wants mankind destroyed because he hates all men, who created by God,
who loves them. The chi system parts were programmed since they were in the womb to absolutely hate God and all men (mankind was labled as “mortals”
who were a fallen, descended state) and to desire the destruction of all mortals so that the immortal, or ascended, could reign.

This, in a nutshell, was the theology I was taught while in the group. This knowledge was hidden from my conscious awareness until late in my own healing journey.
It was terrible to remember that I participated in meetings with others who were planning and looking forward to the destruction of mortal mankind;
or the programming and torture in the womb of my birth mother and I by actors who stated scripts such as “we are mortal men, and cannot help ourselves
from hurting you” and other similar ones. Later, these fetal parts were “rescued” by Satan, who then whispered “one day, you will be able to take revenge
for what men have done to you.”

Even most of my cult parts were completely unaware of this programmed, hidden (to myself) agenda. Many cult loyal parts thought we were working to create
a better, kinder world and it caused deep distress to realize that the real agenda of the group I was raised in was quite different.

What comforts me is the realization that while those in occultic groups are planning these things, their agenda will fail. The Bible has already described
what will happen: Satan will make his play for power, using men and hybrids who serve him, and he will not win. It won’t even be a contest,
because the God of the Christian Bible is the creator, not the created; and will bring about the real new creation and reign on earth that mankind is looking towards.

The difference? The Christian God truly loves His creation, while Satan despises it. I am thankful that the One who loves me and all mankind,
the true God, is the One who will win. Satan’s time is limited; he knows this, so he will attempt to draw men into his plans and schemes.
My prayer is that those who have believed him will become aware that Satan is a liar; and the Christian God tells the truth.


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Where’s the Hope?

As a former occultist, for years, I struggled with despair when I looked at the shape the world around me was in. I knew from personal experience
that in the US, both political parties were corrupted through bribery, blackmail, vows or mind control all the way to the highest levels.
At the Vatican, I had seen many world leaders bow to Satan, asking for his help and offering themselves (and their countries’ resources) to him.
And I had been at meetings of the Supreme World Council, composed of the highest-ranking members of the 12 occultic societies, members who either
held extremely influential positions with the governments of the countries they represented, or held control over those who did, and knew of their agenda
for the world. It was not pretty.

Because of these experiences, I had a pretty bleak view of the fate of the world. And as a Christian in my presentation, I had an equally bleak faith:
I was taught that the world was going to ‘hell in a hand basket’, and that my job as a believer was to hang on somehow as things got worse and worse,
until the antichrist came on the scene, and I got (hopefully, I still struggled with believing I was fully forgiven) raptured away.

Not the most encouraging beliefs, but hey, as a Christian, I was taught I am supposed to endure persecution (somehow? I trembled at the thought),
so this fit neatly with what I had been taught in church all of my life.

Then, in the fall of 2020, just before Yom Kippur (I am messianic, another story in itself), something happened that impacted me greatly.
I had gone to a seminar at church on God’s desire to bless believers financially. And the teacher taught that if we don’t prosper, one reason could be
that we don’t really believe that God wants to bless us, and so we are not agreeing with what He wants for our lives.
What? I thought about my own financial struggles since leaving the Order, and wondered if this could be true. As suggested in the seminar,
that evening in the quiet of my bedroom, I broke all oaths and covenants and vows and agreements (I added rituals in my silent prayer) with mammon
(the teacher had not meant in the up front and personal way I had interacted with this being, he had only meant in general as in influence over
ungodly beliefs and idolatry about money, but I realized I had a deeper prayer to make). I also broke all covenants with death as well, and then
prayed “God, I want your blessings in my life, and I am willing to receive what you want to give me. I agree with your will for my life, not satan’s.”
I realized that I had made inner vows all of my life to never receive anything good from the Christian God, to only receive from satan,
and so in prayer, I renounced those vows as well.

After praying this, I felt pretty shook up inside, but also peaceful. And I was excited, wondering what blessings were going to come.
I was thinking finances, but God had a different idea.
That night, I had a dream that was amazing, but which I totally did not understand. In my dream, it was night time, and everything was dark-pitch black,
without even stars or moonlight. I was on a mountain, and in my dream, I saw an angel with a huge torch. It flew to the mountain, and lit a pile of wood
on the top. The flames shot up, and the light filled the sky in a glorious blaze. As I looked, I saw other angels, all on various mountaintops
around me, and they began doing the same, lighting huge fires. In my dream, I was lifted up into the sky, and I saw that these areas of torch lit fire
were spreading, all across the United States. As one was lit, others followed, until it looked like the nation was ablaze.

Then, as I moved further up and out into the sky, I saw that the same thing was happening around the world. Lights were being lit, and the globe was filled
with light, as points of light started to blaze all over. It was beautiful, and in my dream, I cried with tears running down my face from the sheer beauty
of it all, and the tremendous joy pouring out of the blazes. I felt Jesus standing next to me, and I asked Him,
“What is this? What does this mean?”
He answered, “This is a great revival coming to the earth, where many will come to know me.” I was amazed and filled with joy.

Then, the dream ended. I woke up. And I was happy, but also conflicted. I did not have a theology to cover this, not at all. So I wondered if
this dream was really from the LORD, or another source. While I had heard from people of revivals that broke out in Toronto, Brownsville,
and a few other places, I had NEVER heard of a worldwide revival. That did not go along with my end times theology where the church gets blasted and persecuted,
and is running for its life. How could the antichrist show up if the church was…happy? And growing?

Also, I had asked God to close my eyes to the spiritual realm years before, since I was convinced that with my past, I would not be able to hear
from Him clearly; because of my programming, I was terrified of anything that smacked of the “prophetic” in my own life. That was for REAL Christians,
who had never done the types of things I had done, or so I thought. I did not trust myself at all in this area.
But I kept thinking about the dream, and wanting counsel, I called one of my closest friends, who is a strong believer and Bible teacher,
and told her the dream, and asked her what she thought. “I don’t know,” she replied, hesitantly.
“I’ve never heard of anything like this, but it sounds like something God could do. People coming to know the Lord doesn’t sound evil, or against scripture, at least.”
In prayer, I decided to go to scripture (because I would never base a theology on a dream, ever, the Bible is the final authority on everything).
And, I decided that since the dream seemed like what I had heard called “prophetic”, IF it was true, I needed to see if anyone else who believed
the Bible had ever heard of something like this.

While searching the scripture, I found a verse in Joel 2:28
“And afterward, I will pour out my Spirit on all people. Your sons and daughters will prophesy, your old men will dream dreams,
your young men will see visions. Even on my servants, both men and women, I will pour out my Spirit in those days.”
Okay, but wasn’t that going to happen during the millennial kingdom, AFTER the antichrist did his stuff? But then as I read further in the chapter,
verses 30-32, it mentions some things that actually sound like end times, where the sun turns to darkness, the moon to blood, before the coming of
the “great and dreadful day of the Lord.”

Okay, I’m pretty old, and I was dreaming dreams. But I still prayed about this- a lot. I really didn’t want to get off into weirdness.
After all, one of my favorite verses had been (and still is) “And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony;
and they loved not their lives unto the death.” Rev. 12:11

But the dreams kept coming – unasked for, but filled with joy, night after night for weeks, and then one a week for a year.
In one, I saw a stadium where thousands upon thousands of people came to know Jesus; their praise was a great roar of joy and victory. I had another
dream where there was tremendous persecution of the Christian church (using hate laws), and the church was segregated into specific areas but within
those areas, which I heard called “sanctuary areas” in the dream, it was protected. In my dreams, the church was not a huddling, running church;
it was a victorious church that was sharing the gospel everywhere - and many were being saved; where healings occurred instantly with prayer;
and deliverances and healings of extreme abuses and addictions occurred simply by praying with believers. I had dreams where there was a great river,
with people splashing in the waters, and getting healed, delivered, and saved, by thousands and ten thousands and hundreds of thousands, into millions.
These dreams kept occurring, and I was really wondering what it all meant. It was NOT reflecting the end times theology I had believed at all.

As I went online to learn about the prophetic, because, well, these dreams might be that, I discovered three people who seemed solid
(and also, found some really strange stuff, but what I was experiencing seemed strange, so I am no judge). I downloaded a Kindle book by someone called
Rick Joyner, and to my surprise, in his books, he shared some things that were almost EXACTLY what I had dreamed n some of my dreams
(including a last battle, where Jesus is victorious).

Another person I discovered was named Dutch Sheets, whose books and online videos also seemed okay (note: I am not a “Trumper” but I like the fact
that he does not dwell on politics alone, but instead on prayer and having a relationship with God). Both of these men seemed to believe revival
- great revival - was coming.

And then I read a book by Ruth Heflin Ward called Glory. In it, and in her other books, she shares her belief that God is going to do great things
in the US, Jerusalem, and around the world. This book and another by her (River Glory) absolutely validated my dreams. I went back to my friend
who teaches Bible and shared what I was learning. She read some of these books, and said, “Wow. It looks like something good is coming, doesn’t it?”

I still believe that the church will be persecuted; I have dreamed about this, too. But I no longer believe the church will be powerless, afraid,
or just ‘hanging on’. I believe that there will be a huge, amazing, tremendous revival in these last days, that will equip the church to face + overcome
what is to come, with joy, with peace, with healing, and most of all, with the love of (the true) Jesus. A church that will do miraculous things – healing,
food multiplication (I dreamed of food shortages), supernatural finances, deliverances, and bring hope to a world that feels enslaved to despair and darkness.

(This has been one source of hope for me, but it is not the main one.)

The main one has been the Bible, and God’s promises to me. And this source took a long time to go to, because of all the programming I had inside
to fear/hate/twist God’s word. I had been read the scriptures and shocked since I was in the womb, to cause me to blank them out, or defend against them.
I had been through so many setups where scriptures were intoned as I was abused. Or where a false “Jesus” spoke it as he abused me, or even worse,
opened his arms and beckoned me to him (THAT one was harder to work through, since the second Jesus seemed “nice” like the Christians taught).
Every time I read scripture and tried to apply it personally, I felt a deep twisting and pain inside of my head, making it painful.
I prayed and prayed, worked with parts, and it still persisted, even after commanding the demonic to leave, and comforting littles, since this
had been machined in. But I WANTED to be able to read the Bible, so I started out with just one verse a day, and with reading devotionals
(which didn’t trigger me as much as actual scripture). I found books with scripture verses by topic that I could read a single verse at a time,
such as Sandra Kennedy’s The Magnificent Word of the Lord. I honed in on verses about God’s love (for me) and healing.

I asked the Lord to highlight for me a scripture that I could apply to my life, and meditate on. It took awhile, but then one day I read a verse,
and it seemed to leap out at me from Psalm 103:3-4:
“Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases; Who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with loving kindness
and tender mercies.”
And then, the Lord highlighted the word “all” – He let me know that He forgave ALL my iniquities (sins), and healed ALL my diseases; that HE redeemed me
from destruction. Not only that, but He even crowned me with His loving kindness and tender mercies. When I looked up lovingkindness in my Strong’s concordance,
it noted that this can also denote the tender feelings a mother has for her infant child. God was letting me know that while I did not have
a “loving mother” as a child, He could make this up to me; this is how HE feels about me.
And over time, slowly and gradually, the anti-scripture programming faded, and I could read entire chapters at a time.

So, I am quite aware of all the machinations going on behind the scenes, due to my past history and personal experience with those in what some call
the “Deep State” (which is BOTH political parties, and much more wicked than has been exposed to date; it is just the tip of the iceberg);
and in other countries. I am aware that we are moving towards a time of tribulation. But I also have great hope and joy, because I also know that
God has amazing, wonderful and good plans for His church and believers. That the divide between those that serve (the true, Christian) God,
and those who do not will become greater and greater – and that God is equipping believers to share their hope with those who do not, to “cross the divide”
without fear and share His amazing love, mercy and healing.


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